Dies Irae: Graves
Graves
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Quaerens me sedisti lassus…
tantus labor non sit cassus.
You searched for me long and hard…
May your labour be not in vain.
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Detective Sergeant David Starsky opened his eyes cautiously, and looked
around. Damn everything to Hell, he thought. It didn't
work. I'm still alive. Still on this evil plane of
existence, at least. What do I have to do, to die? Blow my
own head off?
Starsky groaned and sat up. The remains of last night's demon
summoning was spread about the apartment. Broken furniture.
Guttered candles. A circle of salt. Inside that, a pentagram of
salt. Incense and wine.
The corpse of his latest successful demon kill, Furfur. What a
mess. But then demons were not known for their neatness, either
alive or dead. And since Starsky had been forced to rip this
particular demon into several pieces....
Starsky got to his feet, and stumbled into the bathroom. He
regarded his own face in the bathroom mirror. You don't look much
better than Furfur, he told himself. Of course, Hutch would say
you never did, even at your best. Starsky closed his eyes.
He could almost see his partner, almost hear his voice as he shook his
finger under Starsky's nose.
'Starsky, thou art a shambles. Covered in demon blood and demon
gore. Even worse, demon shit. Who knows what is in that,
considering their diets? It is not healthy.'
Starsky laughed bitterly. No. Not healthy. Nothing I
do these days is healthy. But what's the point of being healthy,
when you'd rather be dead? The only reason I haven't blown my own
head off, is that....
The phone rang. Starsky sighed, and picked up the bathroom
extension. 'Yeah, Cap. Starsky, here,' he said.
'Oh, good,' said Captain Dobey. 'You survived. And you're
awake.'
'In a manner of speaking, Captain. I need a shower, and a gallon
of coffee, and a bioscan to check for demon viruses, but my heart is
still pretending to beat.'
'Well, get to Metro as soon as possible. There are a couple of
Feds in my office. They want my best agent, and that's you,' said
the Captain.
'I was your best agent,' said Starsky. 'Not any more.'
'Bullshit, Starsky,' the Captain declared. 'You're still the
best. All you need is discipline, and to quit messing around with
demon summonings after hours. What are you trying to do?
Commit suicide?'
'Yeah. What's it to you?'
'For God's sake, Starsky,' said Captain Dobey. 'Hutch wouldn't
want that, and you know it.'
'Never mind what Hutch would or wouldn't want, Captain. That's my
business. Tell the Damned Feds I'll be in to work when I'm good
and ready.'
Starsky hung up the phone, and turned on the shower. Dobey was
right. Hutch wouldn't want him to commit suicide, which was why
Starsky hadn't blown his brains out. They would be together again
someday, which was why Starsky clung to life on this plane of
existence. But it was also why he took such chances with demon
killing. It was the best way to ensure his spirit found Hutch's
spirit. Hutch had died, killing a demon.
Trying to kill a demon, Starsky amended.
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Metro was a beehive of activity, of course. It was October, and
in a few weeks, it would be Samhain. The doors between the Worlds
would open, and all manner of things, both good and evil, would be on
the move. The grass was always greener on the other side of the
hill. Or deader. Whichever was your preference, thought
Starsky.
Patrol Officers stood about in groups, exchanging information about the
most dangerous demons, and which gates to the next worlds they were
likely to use. When they saw Starsky coming, they fell silent,
and crossed themselves to be on the safe side. Starsky knew many
of the younger officers thought he was half demon himself.
'It is thy Damned temper,' Hutch told him one day. 'Thine eyes
flash, and smoke pours from thine ears.'
'Sure it does,' said Starsky. 'And then there's my other demon
characteristic. But the younger officers don't get to see that. Not
since I stopped showering with them. That's for your eyes only.'
'What art thou talking about, Starsk? Thine tail?'
'Oh, yes. Mine tail belongs to you, Hutch. But I was
talking about this. It doth belong to thee.' Starsky had
shown Hutch what he meant. It took some time, but Hutch finally
agreed it was possessed of demonic proportions, and talents.
Starsky flung open the door to Dobey's office.
'Don't you ever knock, Detective?' asked his captain.
'I'm out of practice, Captain Dobey,' Starsky told him. 'No one
knocks in Hell. So these are the Feds? Don't look very
scary to me.'
'We're not supposed to look scary, Detective,' said one of the
Feds. Female. Tiny and rather cute. Red hair.
That figured. Probably a Witch. Her partner was tall and
dark. He looked Jewish, but that didn't win him any points with
Starsky. He was still a Fed.
'And why not? Why shouldn't you look scary?' Starsky asked.
'We're undercover,' said the man.
Starsky snorted, eyeing the agent's elegant Armani suit. The Feds
must pay better than he'd thought. 'What are you undercover as?'
he asked. 'A gigolo?'
The female Fed howled with laughter. Her partner smiled wryly.
'Starsky!' Dobey roared.
'Yes, Cap?' Starsky asked, innocently.
'Never mind, Captain,' said the male Fed. 'We wanted a Demon
Hunter with spirit. And it looks like we found our man.'
'I hope you're speaking metaphorically,' said Starsky. 'Just what
sort of job did you have in mind? I'm no gigolo. And don't the
Feds have their own Demon Hunters?'
The male Fed smiled -- or smirked, rather. 'They're busy,' he
said. 'Your captain tells me you're a crack Hunter.'
Starsky shrugged, with mock humility. 'We're a dollar a dozen,'
he said. 'What demon do you want me to hunt?'
'No one important,' said the female Fed. 'You ever heard of
Sydonay?'
Starsky picked up a chair, and threw it across the room. 'Damn
you, Dobey,' he roared. 'Did you put them up to this?'
'No!' said the captain. 'No, no. Starsky, I had no
idea. They wouldn't tell me who they were after.'
'Is there a problem?' drawled the male Fed. He of the elegant
suits.
'Yes,' Starsky hissed, right up in his face. 'Sydonay killed my
partner. That's the problem.'
'And now you're scared?' the Fed asked.
Starsky hit him, and he fell down. His little red haired partner
pulled her gun, and aimed it at Starsky's head. 'Go ahead, Lady,'
he told her. 'You'd be doing me a favour.'
The female Fed put her gun away, and helped her partner to his feet. It
seemed she didn't want to do Starsky any favours.
'That's some left hook you've got,' the male Fed commented.
'Thanks,' said Starsky 'You wanna see my right hook?'
'No,' said the Fed. 'I apologize for insulting your
manhood. Feel better?'
'Like a billion bucks,' said Starsky. 'I'm not afraid of
Sydonay. I'd like to rip him into tiny pieces, and feed them to
you. But if he kills me, that's fine too. I just don't like
to hear his name mentioned in my presence. That's all.'
'Well, if we're hunting him, we'll have to mention his name once in a
while. You going to hit me every time?'
'No,' said Starsky. 'Once is enough. I've been hunting him for
months now, and you're only the third asshole I've punched. Why
are you in on the act? What do you care about a so-called minor
demon?'
'He might not be minor any longer,' said the red haired Witch.
'We think he's making a move to take over our World.'
'Ah!' said Starsky. 'And we're all that stands between this World
and Eternal Darkness? Nice.'
'Something like that,' said the male Fed. 'You in?'
'Oh sure. Why not?' asked Starsky. 'I've got nothing better to do
with my time.'
************************
Starsky lay down on Hutch's grave, and pulled the blanket around his
shoulders. It was late, and the cemetery was closed, but the
guards on duty ignored his presence. No one really wanted to mess
with a Demon Hunter. Most had more than one demon tamed and bound
to their service. Despite his odd sleeping habits, Starsky was
quiet and well behaved, and didn't touch the other graves.
He leaned his head against the gravestone, and traced Hutch's name, and
the words Beloved Friend. He remembered the first time he'd seen
them, carved into the marble. His friends had finally given into
his demands to see Hutch's grave. Until that moment, something
inside of him had refused to believe his lover was truly dead.
Even now, he wanted to dig down into the earth to see if the coffin was
empty, or held Hutch's bones.
Dobey and Huggy had seen the body. They would never lie to him on
such a matter. But Starsky wished he'd seen the body
himself. He was still troubled by nightmares, that Hutch would
awake in his grave, and be unable to dig himself out.
'Hutch was dead, Starsky,' Huggy told him. 'Dead, dead,
dead. No doubt about it. You saw the demon kill him
yourself, and you nearly died, too.'
'I wish I had,' said Starsky.
'Well, you didn't get your wish. You win some, you lose
some. It must be that you're meant to live a little longer, for
some reason.'
'What reason, Huggy? I can't think of one.'
'How about to bug me? To drive Dobey mad?'
'That's not enough, Huggy,' said Starsky.
'Then find something to live for that is enough,' said his old
friend. 'Killing demons, maybe?'
'I've been killing demons for years,' said Starsky.
'Well, kill some more. There's always more, man.'
'I know,' said Starsky.
There are always more demons, my darling, he thought. I'd like to
kill the one who took you down. But it won't bring you back to
me. Nothing will. I must join you, sooner or
later. Nights like this, I wish it was sooner.
A cold wind howled through the trees that ringed the cemetery. It
tore up the dead leaves, and sent them tumbling amidst the
headstones. Starsky snuggled closer to Hutch's own
headstone. It's all right, he whispered. I'm warm enough,
and so are you.
He imagined Hutch's answer if he could truly hear Starsky.
'Thou art an idiot, Starsk. Of course I'm warm enough, I'm six
feet underground. Thine hands will freeze off, one of these
nights, to say nothing of thy balls. What art thou thinking
of? Thou hast a warm bed at home. Go to it!'
'My bed isn't warm, Hutch,' he whispered. 'Not anymore. And
I can't sleep without you near. Be quiet and listen. The
Feds think the demon who killed you...'
'Sydonay?' asked Hutch.
'The very one. The Feds think he's making a move to take over
this plane of existence. We're going after him, and I might
die. Isn't that wonderful?'
'Wonderful is not the word that I would use to describe thy death, my
love,' said Hutch.
'But thou art... you're dead, Hutch. So I must die to join
you. I must join you soon, or I will go mad.'
'Starsky, thou art already mad. If thou wishest to join me, do so
now. Come!'
'Hutch?' Starsky sat up, suddenly and looked around. Almost
he thought he really heard his lover calling. But Hutch would
never do that, never ask Starsky to kill himself. It was against
everything he believed in. 'Hutch,' Starsky continued. 'You
know I can't do that yet. I must take down the demon who took you
from me. I can't come to you tonight. But I'm near.'
'Yes,' Hutch whispered in his heart. 'Thou art near,
Beloved. Thou art near. Sleep, and gather thy strength for
the battle.'
Ah. This was the real Hutch. His own Hutch. Not the evil
desire lurking in his own heart. Starsky nestled even closer to
the grave marker that bore Hutch's name, and slept.
******************
'You look terrible, Starsky.'
'Thanks, Cap. So do you.'
'What did you do? Sleep in your clothes all night?'
'Yes. Can we get on with it? I have all my notes, and
Hutch's notes, of our dealings with... that demon.'
'Sydonay. I put the researchers to work. They plotted all
references to his appearances locally the last few decades.
See? His activities have definitely increased.'
'Yes,' said Starsky. He breathed deeply. Hitting everyone
who mentioned that demon's name would achieve nothing, he reminded
himself. He should save his energy for killing the monster.
'We have information going back much further,' said the red haired
Witch Fed. 'At one time, Sydonay moved about a lot, over the
entire World. But lately, he's been concentrating his activities
in and around Bay City.'
'There must be a reason,' said her partner, the Gigolo. 'We think
perhaps it's the Gates.'
'Other places have Gates,' Starsky pointed out. 'Some places have
more Gates. Some places have larger Gates. What's the draw of our
Gates?'
'I don't know for certain,' said the Witch Fed. 'If I did, we
could do something about it. But perhaps the draw is where the
Gates lead to?'
Starsky leaned forward. 'Most of our Gates are mapped,' he
said. 'But not all. Some are inaccessible to Demon Hunters,
to the Police, and to the Feds.'
'Naturally,' said the Gigolo Fed. 'The underworld Gates are
hidden, to say nothing of being heavily guarded by demons.'
'My partner and I were undercover, trying to gather information on some
of those Gates. We must have got too close, and alerted
Sydonay. He took us by surprise, somehow. Hutch, my
partner, was killed, and I was badly injured. Spent months in the
hospital. Mapping the underworld Gates is dangerous.'
'But necessary, if they're being used for an invasion,' said the Witch
Fed.
'Is that what you think?' asked Starsky. 'That's what Hutch
thinks. Thought. That's what Hutch thought. He
thought....'
Starsky drew another deep breath. His sleep had been troubled by
odd dreams. What would he do, if he couldn't sleep on Hutch's
grave, he wondered? But several times, he'd been woken by Hutch's
voice, calling him. Hutch had sounded grief-stricken, as if it
were Starsky who had died, and Hutch who had been left alone.
'Starsky?' asked Captain Dobey. 'Are you okay?'
'No, Cap. I'm not okay. Hutch thought the demons were
planning an invasion through one of the underworld gates. We had
no proof, no evidence that could get us the manpower to put them under
surveillance, so we were on our own. It got him killed.'
'I know, Starsky. I know how you feel.'
'No, you don't. I'm sorry to sound so disrespectful, but you
can't know how I feel. I feel responsible, because I went along
with him. If I hadn't....'
'Don't second guess yourself, Detective,' said the Gigolo Fed.
'It's a waste of time.'
'And how would you feel if it happened to you? If your partner
died, and you knew you might have stopped it?'
The Gigolo Fed smiled. 'I'd feel the same as you,' he said.
'But this is getting us nowhere. If you and your partner were
close to finding the Gate, then you could be that close again.
Even closer. Let's go over your notes. The clues must be
there. Now, we have the manpower you needed, we can do something
about closing the Gate to traffic. Because I think Samhain is the
time.'
'Yes,' said Starsky. 'Hutch thought the same.'
'We did a background check on your partner,' said the Witch Fed.
'How dare you!' said Starsky, half rising from his seat in a futile
urge to protect his lover from some threat.
'Calm down, Starsky,' said Dobey. 'They have the right. It's
routine.'
'I'm sorry. I never liked people questioning his origins, his
motives. As if he were a suspect.'
'He was a Traveller, wasn't he?' asked the Gigolo Fed.
'What of it?' asked Starsky.
'I wish I could have met him. He must have had many tales to
tell.'
'Oh, yes,' said Starsky. 'Many tales. But he's silent
now. Silent as the grave.'
*********************
'I'm not sure I like the idea of computers doing police work,' Dobey
muttered.
'Don't worry, Cap,' said Starsky. 'There's lots of shit work left
for us poor mortals. Like bleeding. And dying.'
'Okay, people,' said the Witch Fed. 'I'm going to run a
simulation. See what comes up.'
She'd set up her small, personal computer in Dobey's office.
There was a fold-up keyboard, a monitor so thin Starsky imagined he
could see through it, and a box. A black box.
Interesting. Starsky wondered if she kept her familiar
inside. She tapped a key, with a long, red-tipped finger, and the
screen lit up, showing the FBI logo with a tiny Fed icon, working at
her desk.
'I'm uploading all your data to Central. Let's see what it says.'
They all watched the screen, eagerly. The screen changed, to a map of
Bay City, with a myriad of colourful demon icons, indicating recent
demon activity. The Witch Fed typed some request into her
keyboard. 'I'm asking the computer where it thinks the Gate we're
interested in might be,' she said.
Starsky could almost hear Hutch snort with derision. 'Thou art
expecting a machine to tell thee how to think, Starsk? Well,
mayhaps thou shouldst. Thou art an artless boil-brained jolthead,
at times. If thou dost not possess a mind like unto mine, thou must
make shift to use what thou hast. Look, thou. The Gate is
here.'
Starsky leaned forward, and tapped the screen. 'Five'll get you
ten the Gate is here,' he said, indicating Hutch's location, down by
the docks.
'What makes you think that?' asked the male Fed. 'Central hasn't
finished digesting all the data, yet.'
'Mayhap some of it is stuck in Central's craw,' said Starsky. 'My
partner thought the Gate was there. That's good enough for me.'
'Ah,' said the female Fed. 'Your partner was a Traveller, as my
partner observed.'
'Yes. He knew a lot about the Gates. And there was more to
it than that. At times, if he got close enough to one, and the
Gate was large enough, he could sense its location, and sometimes,
where it led to.'
'Why wasn't he working for the FBI?' asked the Gigolo Fed. 'We
could have used that talent.'
'Yeah. Used it,' said Starsky. 'Used it as in forced him to
spend his life searching for Gates, and leading FBI investigators
through them. We would have been separated, for one thing. I'm
not Fed material. And the FBI wouldn't have trusted a Traveller
to work alone. What would the difference have been, between
working for you, and working for some demon cartel?'
'Not much, I grant you,' said the Gigolo Fed. 'But wasn't he
wasting his talents, hunting demons, and other assorted murderers, for
a mere city police force?' The Fed ignored Dobey's glare, at the
disparagement of his Force.
'He didn't see it that way,' said Starsky. 'He enjoyed
Travelling, in his younger days, but it started to give him
headaches. The constant time shifts, I suppose. He was
happy, settled down here with me. If he hadn't been, he could
have left at any time. Who could have stopped him?'
'No one, that's true. A Traveller can open any Gate. Ah,
the data has been digested, I see.' A red arrow lit up the
screen, pointing to the location the computer thought held the most
likely Gate.
'And Hutch was right,' crowed Starsky. He could hear his lover
affirm that of course he was right. Be quiet, you churlish,
flap-mouthed codpiece, he thought, and could hear Hutch laugh with
delight at the insult.
'What's funny?' asked the female Fed.
'Nothing,' said Starsky. 'Or everything. Now that we have
the manpower, and the data to back up Hutch's suspicions, can we raid
the joint?'
'I don't know about a raid, Starsky,' Dobey protested. 'Wouldn't
that tip off the demons, that we were on to them?'
'Not if we make it look like we were after smugglers,' said
Starsky. 'The Gate is in the dock area. Hutch and me were
pretending to be investigating possible smugglers. Drugs.
Expensive hi-tech equipment. Even white slavery operations.
It's all quite true, and made a good cover, until we got too close to
the demon's lair.'
'You're on,' said Dobey, after glancing at the Feds, and getting a nod
of approval. 'Go for it.'
'Hold on,' said Starsky. 'Let's do this properly,'
'Properly?' asked the Gigolo Fed.
'Yeah, properly. Hutch taught me that when you deal with demons,
your intentions must be pure, and everything must be fair and square.
Otherwise, they take advantage of every uncrossed T, and undotted
i.' Starsky picked up Dobey's phone, and dialled a number from
memory.
'Huggy Bear is here. Aren't you glad? Speak to me, my man.'
'Hi, Huggy. I've a question for you,' said Starsky.
'Don't you always,' Huggy almost sang. 'What is the question this
time, Starsky?'
'Have you heard of any smuggling operations, down by the docks?'
'You joking, man? There's always smuggling down by the docks.'
'Thanks, Huggy. Catch you later.' Starsky hung up the phone, and
looked at Dobey with triumph. 'My informant tells me there's
smuggling at the docks, sir. We can get a warrant to search them
now, can't we?'
'You're nuts, Starsky,' said Dobey.
'I work hard to get us evidence, and that's all the thanks I get,' said
Starsky.
*****************
The Bay City Police Department and the Federal Bureau of Investigation
had the place surrounded. Captain Dobey so informed the employees
of the Forbes & Co. warehouse, before they busted in the
doors. Numerous men and women scurried to come out with their
hands up. A CEO type, wearing a designer suit that rivalled the
Gigolo Fed's, slithered out to protest the invasion.
'What are you doing, officers?' he asked. 'We're a legitimate
business.'
'We have a warrant,' thundered Dobey. 'Based on information that
you're engaged in smuggling.'
'Smuggling? Us?' The CEO boggled at the suggestion.
'So we were informed. Are you trying to tell us you're innocent?'
The CEO opened his mouth to do just that, then thought better of the
wasted effort. He sighed, instead. 'Listen,' he confided,
leaning forward, his face a picture of sincerity and outraged
morality. 'It's my boss,' he said. 'The morals of a weasel,
and the face to match. But what can you do? You know
everyone smuggles.'
'We know,' said Dobey. 'But we're busting you anyway. If you
really want to confess, you'll get off lightly.'
'Oh, yeah,' said the CEO, cheerfully. 'I'll confess. I'll
confess anything you want. The better the offer, the better the
confession.'
'Sounds good to me,' said Dobey. 'Watson, take this gentleman to
Metro, and get him the best offer going for confessions. I've got
bigger fish to fry.'
'Hey!' said the CEO. 'I'm a big fish. I can tell you all about
the time we....' Watson dragged him away, confessing unimaginable
things the whole way.
It seemed they would not have to break down any doors after all.
Starsky was feeling a bit frustrated, as they strolled peacefully into
the warehouse of Forbes & Co. But once inside, a different
feeling oppressed him. This is too easy, he imagined Hutch
complaining. The warehouse in its entirety gives up without a
fight? Its leader confesses on the instant to anything we wish to
hear? I am no new-born innocent. There is something
smelly here, and it's not only your feet, Starsky.
'Thanks, my darling,' Starsky muttered to himself.
'Is there a problem, Starsky?' Dobey asked him. 'You're talking
to yourself a lot lately.'
'It's a habit I've fallen into, sir. But there is a problem.
Don't you think it's suspicious, how this place just surrendered
without any sort of fight?'
'How could they fight the BCPD and the FBI, Starsky? They're just
a importing business.'
'And a nest of smugglers, sir. You'd think they'd at least demand
their lawyers.'
'You've got a point there, Detective,' said the Witch Fed. 'We
should keep our eyes open, and our ears as well.'
'Hey, Babe,' called the Gigolo Fed, to his partner. 'Look at
this!'
'What's up?' asked the redhead.
'This section of the wall. Look at the strange marks on the
stones, and on the floor. Doesn't that remind you of....'
The floor in question began to shake, and boxes to slide across
it. Starsky's first thought was that it was an earthquake, but
that idea was quelled by the roar of anger from overhead. Several
large, ugly demons hurled themselves over the balcony above. They
all rolled out of the demons' way, and no one was crushed.
Starsky recognized Sydonay among them, and he replied with a roar
of his own.
'You!' said the demon. 'I thought I killed you, along with your
partner. Don't worry. I always fix my mistakes.'
Starsky laughed. 'I'm counting on it,' he said. 'But I'm
taking you with me.'
Sydonay stared at Starsky with obvious confusion. 'You want to
die?' he asked. 'What mortal wants to die?'
'A mortal who has nothing left to live for,' Starsky answered.
'Except to kill you.'
The other demons were squaring off against the Feds, and Dobey.
One of them must have overheard the conversation between Starsky and
Sydonay, for he called over to his fellow demon. 'Be careful,
Buddy. That's the most dangerous kind of mortal!'
Sydonay didn't appear impressed. 'I'll crush you, like I did the
first time,' he said. 'But this time, you won't spring back into shape
again.'
Starsky pulled out his weapons, the special knives that were made to
cut through demon flesh. 'I'll skin you alive,' he said.
'And feed your meat to my demon servants. I promised I'd do that,
before I died, and left them masterless.'
'You have demon slaves?' screamed Sydonay. 'I will eat you
myself, before I'll be fed to such low-born filth.'
The demon charged, and Starsky's knives flashed. The demon lost a
hand, but Starsky was knocked to the ground. He struggled to his
feet in time for the demon's next enraged charge. This time he
managed to keep his feet, but Sydonay lost a chunk of flesh from his
side.
'This may take all day,' said Starsky. 'But you are demon
slave meat.'
Sydonay roared in outrage, and charged once more. One of
Starsky's knives pierced the demon's flesh, right over his heart.
Sydonay picked Starsky up, and flung him across the warehouse toward
the wall. It was the wall that the Feds had been examining, just
before the demon attack. Starsky felt the impact, and then the
strangest feeling, as if he were going on, straight through the stones.
Darkness, and pinpoints of light, like stars. The oddest,
wailing music, like bagpipes, only even less musical, he thought.
Perhaps this was death, only it was a death like nothing he had ever
read about. What happened to the tunnel, and my loved ones who
moved on before me, gathered to welcome me home? What happened to
Hutch, holding out his arms to gather me to his bosom?
I'm a man, he imagined Hutch sniggering. I don't have a bosom.
It was Starsky's last thought, before he passed out.
**********************
Cold, wet grass under his cheek, and the smell of dark, broken earth in
his nostrils. The cheerful chirping of crickets, and the mournful
hooting of an owl. The crunching of leaves under his body, as he
tried to sit up.
Not exactly his picture of Heaven, he thought. But scarcely Hell,
either. It seemed he was alive, still. Damn.
His head ached, and other parts of his body, as well. Perhaps he
was getting too old for this demon hunting nonsense. He levered
himself into a sitting position, and felt for his knives. Ah. There
they were. Feeling safer, he looked around.
That was a mistake, he thought, and quickly closed his eyes
again. He counted slowly to ten, and opened them. The same
view greeted him. But perhaps greeted was too cheerful a
word to use for the view of a cemetery. How did I get from a
warehouse in the Bay City docklands, to a graveyard, he asked himself?
Did I stumble here after the fight with Sydonay, to die on Hutch's
grave? Why would Dobey and the others allow me to do that,
unless they are all dead, or unconscious? And then, why would I
have abandoned them? I can't remember the end of the fight, just
hitting a wall, and nothing, until this.
Starsky shook his head to clear it, and instantly regretted the
action. He closed his eyes, and sank back down to the
ground. This is useless, he thought. Or, as Hutch would
say, bootless. I'll just rest here for a few moments, and gather
my strength, then go and find out what happened, exactly. There
must be an explanation. I wonder whose grave I'm lying on, for
the headstone isn't Hutch's. I know that like the back of my hand.
Curiosity overwhelmed him, and the need to answer at least one riddle.
He sat up again, very carefully, and turned toward the stone
marker. A ray of moonlight caught the carved letters. That
can't be right, he thought. It must be a mistake. For I am
sitting here, still breathing. This must be the grave of another
David Starsky, Faithful Partner of Kenneth Hutchinson. Yes, there
must be many of us in the world. That's a better explanation than
that I've gone round the bend.
He rested his head against his own gravestone, and considered his
options.
I might be unconscious, lying on the warehouse floor, or in a hospital
somewhere, he thought. I remember having very strange dreams in
the hospital, after the last fight with Sydonay. I remember
having nightmares of Hutch calling to me, to dig him out of his
grave. He was smothering, clawing at the coffin lid, and it was
so real.
I might finally be insane, and past all help. That's a fate worse
than death, and I hope someone shoots me, if it's the truth.
Or, maybe I'm dead, and this really is my grave, and I'm hanging around
waiting for... for what? For Hutch to come and find me? We
missed each other, somehow. I'm waiting for Hutch. That's
it.
Starsky looked around the cemetery. None of the headstones looked
familiar. That was curious. He had purchased the plot
next to Hutch's. He should be buried there, and all his friends
knew it. Why had they gone against his wishes? In fact, this
didn't even look like Hutch's cemetery, at all. There was no ring
of trees, for one thing. He could see no lights from the
guardhouse. The cemetery seemed deserted, like no cemetery he had
ever known. Far too quiet and lonely, he thought, and he started
to feel nervous.
He managed to struggle to his feet, and felt for his knives,
again. Just in time, for down the gravel path, he could hear
footsteps coming his way. Only one set of footsteps, he
thought. A man. Walking slowly, but not stealthily.
Not hiding his approach. Not afraid, either, he decided, despite
the late hour, and the loneliness of the cemetery. Perhaps he was a
cemetery guard on his rounds. Perhaps he could answer a few of
Starsky's questions, if Starsky asked them skilfully enough. He
could learn where he was, at least.
A figure appeared, far down the path. Tall, with light
hair. Something in the way the man walked caught Starsky's
eye. It was familiar. Too familiar, and Starsky decided he
had indeed lost his mind. The man caught sight of Starsky,
standing by his grave, and stopped dead in the pathway. Starsky
could hear his gasp, in the silent night. They stared at each
other, in the bright moonlight.
'Starsky?' the man whispered.
'Hutch?' whispered Starsky, and ran to catch his lover, before he
collapsed upon the cold ground.
Hutch clung to Starsky as he caught him. He moaned Starsky's
name, and trembled in his arms.
'Hush, baby,' said Starsky. 'It's okay. Starsky's here.'
'Starsk?' Hutch breathed. He drew back, and gazed into Starsky's
face. His own face was as bright as the moon, shining with
a supernal joy, like a child on Christmas morning, who has found the
pony he always longed for, waiting under the tree.
'Yeah, it's me, ' said Starsky. 'In the flesh.'
Hutch pulled him closer, and buried his face in Starsky's hair.
'Starsky. I knew you weren't dead,' he said.
'Of course I'm not dead. A little banged up, but still
alive. You're not dead, either. I guess I was living for
something, after all.'
They leaned against each other, breathing together for a few minutes,
until both their heartbeats slowed, and the world stopped spinning
about like a child's top. Starsky pulled back a little, and
looked at Hutch's face. His lover looked worse than Starsky
looked in the mirror any morning these days.
'What have you been doing to yourself?' he asked. 'You look
terrible.'
Hutch laughed. 'Oh, living a nightmare,' he said. 'They
told me you were dead… but… but Starsky, I saw you. I saw
you get shot. And I was there, the other day. I was there
when you died. Starsky?'
Hutch was shaking again. Tears were running down his face.
Starsky pulled his head down, and kissed the tears away. 'Hush!'
he said again. 'I'm not dead. It was a bad dream. Feel
me. Do I feel cold?'
'No. You feel so warm.'
Starsky kissed all down his face, and then pressed his lips against
Hutch's soft mouth. That felt so good, he thought. It's
been too long. We need to find somewhere warm, and private, and
make up for lost time. Hutch pulled away, and stared at Starsky
in surprise.
'What's wrong, Babe?' asked Starsky. 'You still think I'm
dead. Let's go home, and I'll prove I'm alive. As alive as
you could ever wish for.' He ran his hands down Hutch's back, and
slipped his hand under his jacket, to touch his lover's bare skin.
Hutch sighed, then laughed a little. 'This is a dream, isn't
it? I'll wake up, and you'll be under the cold ground again.'
'No,' said Starsky. 'I promise.' He pulled Hutch back into
his arms for another kiss. Hutch's lips felt so innocent, and
full of wonder. As if Starsky had never kissed him before.
As if this were the first time their lips had ever touched. It's
been a while, thought Starsky. But not that long.
He could hear voices, coming toward them. A flashlight
searched the path, and lit on them, standing in each other's
arms. 'Hey!' a voice called. 'What are you doing
there? Oh my God! It's two guys. Perverts! Get
out, or we'll call the police.'
Starsky put Hutch away, gently, and turned to face the guards.
'Who are you calling perverts?' he asked. 'My friend is in
mourning, and I was comforting him. Is that perversion?'
'Oh, I'm sorry,' said the guard. 'We thought you were
homos. Fairies, you know? But it's late. The cemetery
is closed. You should go home.'
Homos? Fairies? Starsky wondered what strange land he had woken
up in. A land where Hutch was alive, but thought Starsky was
dead. A land where cemetery guards called men perverts for
comforting their friends beside a grave. And whatever was a homo?
'Come on,' he said to Hutch. 'Let's find our way out.'
'The gate is that way,' said the guard. 'The gatekeeper will let
you out.'
Hutch's car was parked near the gate. It looked like all Hutch's
cars. Ready for the junkyard.
'Where are your keys?' asked Starsky. Hutch didn't answer.
He seemed to be in another world, a condition Starsky understood.
Perhaps they were both in other worlds, he thought. Perhaps they
were both lost. But that didn't matter, because they had found
each other. He dug in Hutch's pockets, and found the keys.
He opened the car, and pushed Hutch inside. When he shut the
door, and started around to the driver's side, Hutch opened the door
again, and tried to follow.
'It's all right, Babe,' Starsky assured him. 'I'm not going
anywhere.' He got in the passenger side, and pulled Hutch in
after him. That was better. Starsky started the car, and
drove away from the graveyard. Not a good atmosphere, he
thought. He found a quiet side street, and stopped. The car
warmed up, and they sat slumped against each other.
'Starsky?' Hutch whispered. 'What's going on?'
'I don't know, Babe. But it's late, and I'm cold and tired and
hungry, and I need you. Let's go home, and figure it out in the
morning. Okay?'
'Okay,' said Hutch.
'Um... where do we live, Hutch? Just out of curiosity.'
'I live at Venice Place, Starsky,' said Hutch. 'I don't know
where you live. Not anymore. You've been in the hospital
for months, and you couldn't keep your apartment going. We needed
the money for your medical bills. And then, the other day.
Starsky. You died. I was there.'
'Hutch. Don't think about it now. We'll think about it in
the morning. Remember? Now, where's this Venice
Place? The name doesn't sound familiar.'
********************
Starsky pulled up at Venice Place. An interesting building, he
thought. Near the beach. There seemed to be a restaurant on
the ground floor, which was promising. But it was late, and the
restaurant was closed. Starsky hoped Hutch had something in his
cupboards, or his refrigerator. He turned to ask, and was struck
by the expression on Hutch's face. An expression of complete
bemusement. As if an elaborate joke were being played on him, and
he didn't mind, but was worried about the punch line.
'I just noticed,' said Hutch. 'You're dressed funny.'
'Yeah, so are you,' said Starsky. 'And you talk funny too.
I've been thinking, we must have been separated, by the Gates, I
mean. We've been in different Worlds, and we each thought the
other was dead. Does that make sense, darling?'
'Nothing makes sense, Starsk. Gates? Different
worlds? What are you talking about? Am I living in a
Science Fiction movie, or TV show? Like Star Trek?'
'Star Trek? Never mind. This is pointless, and it's not
what we want or need. Come on, Babe. Let's go inside, and
get warm. And then get really warm.'
Starsky got out of the car, and Hutch followed quickly. It seemed
he was still afraid of letting Starsky out of his sight. But
Starsky could sympathize with that fear. Hutch found his own keys
this time, and let them in the apartment. It was dusty, and
stuffy. Starsky opened a window, and let in some fresh air.
He shook his head over the beer cans littering the floor. 'I
don't remember you being this bad a housekeeper, sweetheart,' he said.
'I haven't cared much about anything for months now, Starsky. You
were dying.'
'I know what you mean,' said Starsky. 'I need something to eat,
and some coffee. Then I need bed. With you. Where's the
kitchen? And I hope the sheets are clean. But God! Why am I
worrying about such little things? Come here.' He pulled
Hutch into his arms once more, and claimed his mouth for a harsh
kiss. 'Oh, my darling. You don't know what Hell the last
few months have been without this. Let's fuck first, eat
later. How does that sound?'
'Starsky? What are you talking about?'
'Oh, baby. Has it been so long you don't remember? Or are
the words for it different here? That cemetery guard had some
strange vocabulary. What's a homo? Hmm? Never
mind. Where's the bedroom?'
Hutch stared at him, then shrugged. 'Over here,' he said, leading
him to some sliding doors. He watched, while Starsky opened them,
and stepped inside.
'Nice,' Starsky commented. 'A brass bed. Lots of
plants.' He ripped the covers off the bed, and was pleased to see
the sheets were clean. In fact, the bed looked unused.
Where had Hutch been sleeping? At the hospital, most
likely. He stripped off his jacket, and tore open his
shirt. Then he glanced at Hutch, who was standing in the doorway,
watching him.
'What's taking so long?' he asked. 'Don't you like me
anymore?' He tried to smile, but something was wrong with his
face. 'Hutch!' he cried. 'Come here. Hold me. I
need you.'
Hutch was there, holding him close. Rocking him in his arms. 'Oh,
Starsky,' he said. 'What are we going to do?'
'Make love, darling. Hold each other all night. Doesn't
that sound like a good plan?'
'It does. But I don't know how to make love to you. I've
never been with a man before.'
'Of course you have. You've been with me. Thousands of
times. Don't you remember? I know. You've lost your
memory. You lost it when you Travelled through the Gate. It
never happened before, but something went wrong, I guess. That
explains why you don't talk like yourself, too. Now, will you get
out of those Damned clothes, and get into bed where you belong?
I'll remind you of everything you need to know. I haven't
forgotten how to make love. I'm a little rusty, but it's like
riding a bicycle. You never really forget.'
Hutch laughed. His laugh sounded a bit like the laugh of a man
trying to keep up his facade of bravado, when he's about to be shot at
dawn. Don't worry, Babe. It's not going to be like that. I
promise you're going to like this. I know exactly what to do.
'Hutch? Darling?' he asked.
'Yeah?' asked Hutch. His voice sounded shaky.
'When you were a kid, did you ever want a pony for Christmas?'
'Sure, Starsky. All boys do. But I never got one, of
course. Why do you ask?'
'Because now you have one. Me. And you can ride me as hard as you
like.'
**************
Starsky slid out of bed, trying not to jolt the mattress. He held
his breath for a moment, but this time, Hutch seemed to be deeply
asleep. He tiptoed into the bathroom, turned on the light, then
laughed at his own reflection in the mirror. A two day
beard. Dried blood on his forehead from hitting the wall at the
warehouse. Haggard cheekbones from not eating properly for
months. Dark circles under his eyes from not sleeping properly
for months.
Bite marks all over his neck and shoulders. Beard burn over his
entire body. Lips raw from kissing Hutch. A glorious smile all
over.
I guess I'll live, he thought.
He left the bathroom door open, and turned on the shower. The hot
water stung, in various tender places. Hutch hadn't been much
gentler than the demon, thought Starsky. But he's a lot prettier,
so I'll forgive him. Starsky thought about Hutch's condition, and his
current confusion. It was all understandable. In this
world, wherever the Hell this world is, I died about three days ago,
after lingering in a coma for months. Poor Hutch. No
wonder he's a mess. And I'm used to people appearing from other
worlds. That's where Hutch came from originally. In this
God-forsaken place, they've never heard of the Gates. I'm going
to have to explain it all to him, from the beginning, and I'm not even
sure I understand it properly myself.
What's important, here? I'm Starsky, and he's Hutch.
There was nothing edible in Hutch's kitchen. The fridge was
empty, except for a couple of six packs of beer. Some moldy bread and
two cans of soup were all the cupboards held. Hutch must have
been eating at the hospital, as well as sleeping there. It was a
wonder he was still alive.
I'm hungry, thought Starsky, so Hutch better have some money. He
found his wallet, and rifled it. Several bills, with rather large
numbers on them. $20 and $50. Surely he could get
enough groceries for $90, unless inflation was out of control.
His shirt was dirty, and had dried blood on it, so he borrowed one of
Hutch's. His pants were ripped, so he dug through Hutch's drawers
until he found a pair of jeans that fit. Then he scribbled a
note, and left it on Hutch's bedside table.
Gone out to hunt for food so we won't starve. Man cannot live on
beer alone, Turkey. Will be back soon. Your pony.
He drove around for a while, getting the feel of the city. Bay
City, and yet not Bay City. No sign of demon activity, but lots
of drug addicts, hookers and pimps. Starsky didn't know whether
to consider that an improvement. Finally, he pulled into the
parking lot, at a supermarket that he hoped was far enough from Hutch's
apartment that no one would recognize him. He wasn't sure how to
explain his rise from the grave. I don't think they'd believe I'm
Jesus Christ, he thought.
Two big steaks, and potatoes to bake. A loaf of garlic bread, in case
they have vampires here. After months of take out pizza, even I'm
ready to admit a salad is good for you, on occasion, if you don't
overdo it. Fresh coffee. Milk, and orange juice.
Cookies? Hmm. Oatmeal's good for you, isn't it? A
newspaper, so I can find out what's going on in this world. All
that cost less than $20. But what are these bags made of?
They stretch like cheap condoms. Hope they don't break like them.
He found Hutch's apartment again, and put the bags of groceries down
before he opened the door. Sure enough. The instant he
stepped inside, he was grabbed in a bear hug, and crushed against the
door.
'Starsky! Where did you go?' Hutch mumbled into his hair.
'Why did you leave me?'
'I went to get groceries. I left you a note. Didn't you read it?'
'Yeah. It didn't make any sense. Something about beer, and
turkey, and ponies. Your handwriting's terrible.'
'I'm sorry. Can I get the groceries? They're just outside
the door.'
'What sort of groceries?' asked Hutch, suspiciously.
'Normal food, from a supermarket,' said Starsky. 'It has to be
better than what you've been eating lately. Hospital cafeteria
food, am I right?'
'I suppose so. I don't remember,' said Hutch, eyeing the
bags of groceries with continued suspicion.
'Hospital food will do that to you,' said Starsky. 'Kills all
your brain cells, and leaves you permanently disabled if you eat it
long enough. I'm going to fry up these steaks. You make a salad,
and put the potatoes in to bake. Have a cookie. You need
your energy.'
'Starsky. Did anyone ever tell you you're bossy?'
'You see? You're starting to remember everything. It's just
a matter of time.'
*******************
Hutch stared at the plate Starsky plunked down in front of him.
'Eat!' said Starsky.
Hutch picked up his fork, and poked at the steak with it.
'It's cooked, sweetheart. It won't moo at you.'
Hutch glared at Starsky, and picked up his knife. He took a deep breath.
'Do you want me to cut it up in little pieces for you?' Starsky asked
him.
'Shut up, and eat your own dinner,' said Hutch. He looked at the
clock. 'Lunch, I mean.'
'It's food, Hutch. We need food, whatever you want to call the
meal. When was the last time you sat down and actually ate an entire
meal?' Starsky cut into his steak, and chewed,
reflectively. 'I can't remember either,' he added.
They ate for a while in silence.
'This is good,' said Hutch. 'Thanks.'
'You're welcome,' said Starsky. 'That goes for everything.'
'Starsk,' said Hutch.
'Hush. Just eat.'
'No. Listen.' Hutch put down his knife and fork, and looked
at Starsky. 'Last night,' he said.
'Yes? What about last night?'
'I didn't ... I mean, I never ....'
'That's okay,' said Starsky, calmly. 'If you didn't like it, we
don't have to do it again. I'll understand.'
'Not do it again? Of course I want to do it again. Starsky!'
Starsky took his hands, and kissed them. 'I'm sorry,' he
said. 'I was joking. Not funny, I know. But Hutch,
didn't I show you last night? I'm yours. Nothing can keep
us apart. Not demons. Not the Gates. Not death.
Nothing.'
'I wish I could believe all that,' said Hutch.
'Believe it,' Starsky told him.
'I keep thinking I'll wake up, and last night was a dream.
Beautiful, but illusory. Like a bubble that bursts, and it's
completely gone, as though it never existed. You know?'
'Yes. I know. Eat your lunch, Hutch, and you'll feel
better. Then we'll try bursting a few more bubbles.'
Hutch ate his salad and his baked potato. Then he watched
Starsky finish his own meal.
'You're Starsky,' he said, at last.
'I know. I always have been,' said Starsky.
'But not my own Starsky.'
'Hutch! Don't. I told you....'
'It's okay. My own Starsky wouldn't have done those things last
night.' Hutch leaned forward, and took Starsky's hand. 'He
wouldn't. I know that. I think, deep inside, I always
wanted it, somehow, but never let myself even dream about it. We
were close, always close, always together. It was enough.'
'Are you sure?' asked Starsky. 'Perhaps it was enough, but only
because you never had more. Would it be enough now?'
Hutch closed his eyes, as though he couldn't look at Starsky and think
at the same time.
'No,' he said, after a long, terrible moment. 'It wouldn't be enough.
Not now.'
*******************
Hutch followed him into the bedroom, his attitude a curious mixture of
eagerness and reluctance. Almost like a young virgin with a first
lover. It was amusing, thought Starsky. He smiled up at
Hutch from under his lashes, and turned half away, to unbutton his
shirt. Hutch laughed, and came over to him.
'May I do that?' he asked.
Starsky batted his eyes, and said, 'I suppose so. It's your
shirt, after all.'
'I thought I recognized it. But your clothes are around, stored away in
boxes, I think. Starsky!'
Hutch was shaking, again. Damn. Starsky kissed him, and
rubbed his back, until he grew still.
'I'm sorry,' said Hutch. 'But it was.... You were shot, and
almost died. They said you did die, on the operating table.
They brought you back to life, but you slipped into a coma. And
then, you just slipped away, completely. I never had the chance
to say goodbye.'
'There was no need to say goodbye,' said Starsky. 'I'm
here. Take my shirt off.'
Hutch undid the buttons, obediently.
'Touch me,' said Starsky.
Hutch ran his fingers through the dark curls on Starsky's chest.
He drew the shirt off Starsky's shoulders, and stroked his arms and
back almost reverently. Last night, Hutch had been in a state of
shock. He'd let Starsky do anything he wanted, helplessly
accepting each caress, helplessly giving into his passion. With
anyone else, Starsky would have been guilty of taking advantage.
But this was Hutch.
My own Hutch, thought Starsky, whatever you believe. The demons
took you away from me. They brought you here, they deprived you
of your memories, and they gave you a demon impostor, who called
himself Starsky. So, he wouldn't give you this? He deserved
to die.
'Go on,' said Starsky, making it an order. 'Take off my pants for
me.'
Hutch's hands were shaking, as they pulled down the zipper. His
fingers brushed against Starsky's groin, and he moaned.
'Oh, yes. You like that, don't you?' Starsky growled. 'You
want it. You've always wanted it. Say it. Tell me
you've always wanted it.'
'I've always wanted it,' said Hutch. He was laughing a little,
trying to hide his amusement, but not succeeding. That was fine
with Starsky. If he was amused, he was less shy and afraid.
'What do you want to do with it?' he asked.
'I'm not sure,' said Hutch. He was looking everywhere but at
Starsky's swelling cock.
'Close your eyes,' said Starsky. 'Listen to my voice.
Remember last night? Think about last night. Remember how
your body behaved? When I kissed you, you kissed back. Your
lips weren't afraid, were they? They knew me. Your body
knew me. Your body knows we're lovers. So does your heart
and your soul. It's your head that's confused. Your head
thinks we're only friends, but your body and your heart and your soul
know better. What do they tell you, Hutch? No, keep your eyes
closed. Don't look at me, just feel me. What does your body
tell you, when you touch me? Listen to my voice. What does
your heart tell you?'
'Starsk. I want to kiss you.'
'Yes. Kiss me,' said Starsky.
'I mean, I want to kiss you here,' said Hutch. He kept his eyes
closed, as he knelt to kiss Starsky's cock. Starsky stayed very
still, hardly breathing. He felt his lover's sweet lips, and then
his tongue. It almost shattered him, but he held on. Now
would not be a good time to fall apart. He wanted to enjoy every
moment of this. Hutch gave the best blowjobs Starsky had ever had.
*********************
The ringing phone woke Starsky. He started to reach for it, but
Hutch slapped his hand away, just in time.
'H'lo?' he mumbled. 'Yeah, Huggy. It's me, and I'm
fine. No, I'm not sick. Why'd you ask? I was
sleeping, okay. That's why I sound sleepy. You woke me
up. No, I haven't been sleeping all this time. No, I don't
need you to bring me dinner. 'Cause I had dinner, that's
why. Huggy, look. You're my friend, but I don't want to see
you right now. Huggy? Huggy? Damn. The son of a
bitch hung up. He's coming over here. Bringing me dinner.
Doesn't believe I ate anything. Think we can get out of Dodge in
time?'
'Why? I wanna meet him,' Starsky said, in his own sleepy
voice. 'And what's Dodge?'
'You can't meet Huggy, Starsk,' said Hutch, in a suddenly wide awake
voice, filled with horror. He ignored Starsky's question about
Dodge.
'Why not?' asked Starsky. 'We're old friends.'
'Because you're dead, that's why not,' said Hutch, in his scolding
voice.
'Hutch,' said Starsky. 'I'm not dead. Worn out, yeah.
Hungry again, yeah. If you don't want the dinner he's bringing
over, I do. Come on. We better shower, first. We must smell
pretty rank.'
'Starsky, you're incorrigible,' said Hutch, trailing after him, into
the bathroom.
'Thanks. So are you,' said Starsky. He turned on the
shower. 'Want to join me?' he asked.
They washed each other, tenderly. When Starsky's hands roused
Hutch's sleepy cock, he fell to his knees to demonstrate his own
cocksucking technique. Hutch's gasps and moans mingled with the
sound of the rushing water. It was a symphony that Starsky never
grew tired of hearing, and he said so, as they lay in an exhausted heap
on the shower floor. The water turned tepid, then cold. The
doorbell rang.
'I'll get it,' said Hutch. He struggled to his feet, and turned
off the now icy shower. They were both shivering, but clean, and
happy. 'You get dressed, and wait in the bedroom for now,' Hutch
ordered. 'I don't suppose I can actually keep you from barging
out there, eventually. Unless I tie you up in the closet, I mean.'
'You and what army, my darling?' asked Starsky, drying Hutch's hair
with a towel. It was soft, and silky, and clung to Starsky's
hands.
Hutch sighed. 'Just let me prepare him, okay? I don't know
how, but I'll try. If you just walk out there ....'
'I know that,' said Starsky. 'I'm not stupid.'
'No. You're not. But you're convinced of the reasonableness
of your wild story. Other worlds. Gateways.
Demons. It's all crazy.'
'Then how do you explain me?' asked Starsky.
'I don't. I can't. But then, I never could. I'm wondering
if Huggy will even see you. If he doesn't, then I'll know I'm
insane.'
'If he doesn't, then Huggy's the crazy one,' said Starsky.
'You would say that,' said Hutch.
Starsky pulled on the jeans and shirt Hutch had removed with such
tenderness some hours before. He wrapped himself in the memory of
Hutch's hands on his body, Hutch's mouth on his cock. It was
armour, he thought. Armour for the soul.
He listened as Hutch opened the apartment door and let Huggy
inside. He couldn't help feeling stupid, hiding in here like a
dirty secret, even if he knew it was necessary. But he'd been a
part of Huggy's life, and Hutch's life for so many years. Hutch
knew he was real. He knew he was Starsky, even if he couldn't
admit he was the true Starsky. Hutch accepted their
relationship. He wanted it to go on. Huggy's opinion
wouldn't change that. This Huggy's opinion, he corrected himself.
'I brought you some lasagna,' Huggy was saying. 'Look, a big dish
of it. Garlic bread, and a salad.'
'Uh. Thanks, man. That should come in useful.'
'Yeah. Useful is my middle name. Huggy Useful Bear. You sit
down, and you eat.'
'Huggy, I told you, I ate already.'
'Sure you did. What'd you do? Open one of them cans of soup
that's been knocking around in your cupboards since you moved in
here? Should I take you to the hospital, just in case?'
'No, Huggy. I'll be fine. I had a steak.'
'A steak? A steak of what, man?'
'Beef. Look, Huggy. Sit down. I have something I want
to tell you, now you're here.'
'Beef? You ate a steak?'
'Yeah. Sue me. Huggy, sit down, okay?'
'I think I should stay on my feet, man. You're acting really
weird, you know? You don't look like yourself. I mean, not
like yourself lately. Lately, as in the last few months.
What's goin' on?'
'That's what I'm trying to tell you, Huggy. You know Starsky
died?'
'Yeah, man. I was there. It ripped my heart right out of my
body, Hutch.'
'Mine too. But you see, it grew back.'
'Grew back? What do you mean, Hutch? It grew back?
You trying to tell me you're over Starsky dying already? No way.'
'That's not what I'm trying to tell you, Hugs. I'm telling you
that my heart grew back, because Starsky isn't dead. Not really.'
'Ah, Hutch. Listen, man. Starsky... I know it's hard to
accept that he's gone. If it gives you comfort to imagine his
spirit is with us, that's okay. But Hutch, you have to face it.
He's dead, Hutch. We buried him the other day.'
'I know. I was there. But he came back to me. He's here
now. Starsky's here now.'
'Hutch? You trying to tell me his ghost... No. I don't
believe that. You been drinking too much beer. That's what
it is. Listen, Hutch. There's something I've been meaning
to talk to you about. This is just between you and me. And
you can forget all about it, right after I'm done talking, okay?'
'Okay, Huggy. What's this about?'
Hutch sounded mystified, and Starsky moved closer to the bedroom door,
so he wouldn't miss a word.
'I wanted to tell you, that I always knew how much you loved
Starsky. I loved him like a brother, the way I love you. But I
know you loved him more than that. If you ever need to talk to
anyone, I'm here. I won't judge you.'
'Thanks, Huggy. That's good, because I wanted to talk to you
about that, as well. I do love Starsky more than as a brother. We
slept together last night.'
'Slept together?' asked Huggy. He sounded a bit shocked.
'Yes. Slept together. In the same bed. Naked.'
'Ah!' Starsky could hear Huggy pacing up and down the living
room. 'You slept with a ghost, Hutch? Naked? You're
starting to frighten me, man.'
'Starsky's not a ghost. He's not dead. We slept together
last night, and we fucked each other.'
'Okay,' said Huggy. 'Now I'm officially terrified. Starsky
wouldn't do that, Hutch. Dead or alive.'
'That's not true, Huggy. I would, and I did.'
Huggy turned at the sound of Starsky's voice. He staggered, and
Hutch jumped up to catch him before he could fall.
'Starsky?' Huggy gasped.
'In the flesh,' Starsky answered. 'I'm not a ghost, and it's
really me.'
'Okay,' said Huggy. 'I think I will now sit down.'
He sat down, right there on the floor, and spent some time shaking like
a leaf.
'I'll get you a beer,' said Starsky. 'There's a couple six packs
in the fridge.'
********************
'I don't believe you guys,' Huggy kept muttering. They were
sitting on the floor, drinking beer. Starsky said it reminded him
of their Academy days, and Hutch agreed. He laughed, a little,
then looked away, suddenly shy. Starsky wondered what had
happened in their Academy days, in this world, according to Hutch's
memories. Maybe he'd a few too many beers one night, and admitted
to feelings he thought he shouldn't have?
'I don't believe you guys,' said Huggy, again. 'Hutch. My
brother. Do you believe all this crap Starsky's giving us?'
'I don't believe it, or disbelieve it,' said Hutch. 'I'm keeping
an open mind.'
'Yeah? An open mind, huh? Too open, I'm thinking,
maybe.' Huggy edged closer to Hutch, and eyed Starsky
suspiciously. 'How can we be sure this Starsky is for real?
He looks like Starsky. He talks like Starsky. But he could
be an impostor.'
'No. He's real, no doubt in my mind.'
'Why do you say that, man? Because he fucked you?' Huggy asked,
brutally.
'Yeah,' said Hutch. 'He knew things about me, from the very
beginning. How to turn me on. The right things to say and
do.'
'Hutch, this is more than I need to know. Do you mind?' said
Huggy.
'Well, I'm sorry,' said Hutch. 'But you asked. And it's the only
evidence I have to go on. So far, I haven't seen any demons, or
the Gate Starsky was talking about. But this is Starsky.
Right down to the overly dramatic entrance. Did you have to jump
in right then, Stupid? I was working up to inviting you to join
us.'
'Sorry. But Huggy made me mad, when he said I wouldn't have made
love to you. You said the same thing.'
'It's true,' said Hutch. 'Was true. Starsky wouldn't have
touched me that way.'
'Why not?' asked Starsky. 'How do you know that?'
'He never gave me the least sign he was interested. He was always
running after women. Woman after woman. Besides, it's
dangerous. Homosexuality is illegal. You and I would be
arrested, and could be sent to prison for life, if we were found out.'
'Ah,' said Starsky. 'I see. Huggy? I want you to
understand something. I'm only interested in Hutch. He's my
partner, in every way. But do something for me, would you?
Take off your clothes.'
'What? No way, Starsky.'
'You're refusing?' asked Starsky. He got to his feet, and stood
over Huggy in his most threatening manner. That was pretty
threatening it seemed, in this world as well as his own. Huggy
started to slide backwards, across the carpet. Hutch got up, and
grabbed Starsky's arm.
'What's wrong?' he asked. 'What are you doing?'
'It's a test, that's all. Take off your clothes, Huggy. Or
you fail the test. You scared of being seen naked? You
ashamed?'
'Of course not!' said Huggy. 'Fine. I'll strip.'
Huggy pulled off his clothes quickly, tossing them on a nearby
chair. 'There!' he said. 'Huggy Bear, in all his naked
glory. Happy?'
'Not yet,' said Starsky. He grabbed Huggy, and pulled him close,
then kissed him, hard. His hands roamed up and down the long,
dark back, searching out all the remembered points of....
He was flung away, by an enraged Huggy Bear. 'What the Hell do
you think you're doing?' roared Huggy. Hutch didn't look much
happier. Starsky felt surreptitiously for his demon-killing
knives. They weren't necessary. Huggy turned away, tears in
his eyes, trying without success to hide the beginnings of an erection.
'I'm sorry, Huggy. But I had to know.'
'Know what, Starsky?' Hutch demanded. 'Know that you can turn on
any man, given the chance? Is that all you wanted from me, too?'
'No, darling. I needed to know if Huggy was a demon, like the
Starsky in this world. He was a demon, I'm sure of it.'
****************
'Okay, let me get this straight.' said Hutch. 'You think I'm the
Hutch from your world. That I was brought here by demons, and
that Starsky was a demon, too? That all my memories were faked
somehow?'
'That about wraps it up, yeah,' said Starsky.
'But, what about everyone else? They have memories of me, as
well. Like Huggy Bear. You remember me, right?'
'Sure man. Goin' way back,' said Huggy.
'And his memories are real enough, I guess. Memories of the real
Hutch in this world. He probably died at some point, and they
replaced him with you.'
'You're giving me a headache,' said Hutch. 'This is like a soap
opera. Why the elaborate plot? Who would go to so much
trouble?'
'Demons,' said Starsky, firmly. 'It's how they think. How
they operate. They're always trying to twist things, and
manipulate people. It's what they do. There are many kinds
of demons. Some can take human form. But, if they lose
control, they go back to demon form. Demons lose control, when they
have sex. That's why your Starsky wouldn't make love to you,
Hutch. And what's a soap opera?'
'But... but Starsky, he may not have made love to me, but he had many
women. I know that.'
'Perhaps. Perhaps he had sex with them, and wiped their
memories. Perhaps he created false memories. Many demons
have that ability. But it's tricky. Did he have a
girlfriend?'
'No. A different woman every time.'
'You see, memories can be wiped only so often. You could go
crazy, or catatonic, or your real memories might come back.'
'I still don't understand why they'd do this. Why not just kill
me?'
'Some demons would. But for others, that's not enough
revenge. It's too simple, too easy. Not enough pain for us
both. But to separate us. To make me think you were
dead. To bring you to this world, and put me within reach, but
unavailable, and then to kill me as well, leaving you alone. To have us
both alive, but thinking the other is dead? That's diabolical,
don't you think?
'When you put it that way, yes. But why did they want to get
revenge on us?'
'We're demon hunters. We've killed many demons. But they
didn't count on us meeting again. Now that we're together again,
we can go back where we belong. You're a Traveller. You can
open the Gate, Hutch. I know where the Gate is. Right by my
gravestone. We can go there today. Now, if you like.
Open the Gate, and we'll be home.'
'Starsky? I can't do that. This is my home. This is
where I belong.'
'You don't want to go home with me? Hutch, look into your
heart. You know that's where you belong.'
'No, Starsky. I don't know that. You're wrong. And
you were wrong about Starsky. My Starsky, I mean. He
wasn't a demon. I'm thinking you are.'
'Hutch! Darling, don't talk like that.'
'Don't call me stupid, childish names like that. Like I was your
girlfriend, or something. I'm a man. Start treating me like
one.'
'Hutch? What's wrong? Why are you talking like this?'
'You're wrong, Starsky. This whole thing is wrong. I have
to get some fresh air. I think I've been in here with you long
enough.'
'Hutch! Don't. Don't walk out, Babe.'
'I'm not your baby, Starsky. We'll talk later. Maybe.'
The door shut, and Starsky listened to Hutch's footsteps, going down
the stairs. He couldn't seem to move for a moment, as if his legs
no longer worked. Then, as he heard the street door bang, he came
back to life, and started after his lover. Huggy grabbed his arm.
'Leave it, Starsky. Let Hutch think for a while. You can't
force him to go with you. Wherever it is you want to go. You're
asking him to take a lot on trust. Too much. I don't
believe a word you say, myself.'
'It's all true, Huggy. Every word of it.'
'So you say. But where's your proof, man?'
'Here, Huggy.' Starsky tapped his own chest, over his
heart. 'It's right here. If Hutch is really Hutch, he'll
believe.'
Starsky ran down the stairs after Hutch, but when he reached the
street, Hutch had disappeared.
*****************
Starsky wandered the streets of Bay City for a while, feeling like one
of the homeless people, carrying all they owned in shopping bags.
Actually, they owned more than he did, he thought. The clothes on
his back belonged to Hutch. So did his body, and his heart and
soul. But Hutch no longer wanted them. Perhaps he never
had. Perhaps he had forced himself on Hutch, and Hutch had only
welcomed him because he was lonely, and in mourning for another man.
Starsky caught a taxi, and went to the only place he could now call
home. The cemetery had a tombstone with his name on it, he
thought. There was a Gate into his own time and place.
Perhaps he could open that Gate and go home, since he belonged there.
Hutch was sitting on his grave. He should have known that was
where Hutch would be. Starsky stood behind a tree, and watched as
the person he loved most in all the universe wept. Once he would
have run to Hutch to comfort him, but how could he do that now, when
Hutch thought he was evil? Dammit, he thought. Get over your self
pity, and go to the man. Beg his forgiveness.
At that moment, Hutch looked up, and saw him waiting. 'Starsky?'
he whispered. His eyes were full of tears.
Starsky felt strangely awkward, for the first time ever, as he walked
towards his lover. He held out his hands. 'Hutch,' he
said. 'I'm so sorry. Please forgive me?'
'Don't be sorry,' said Hutch. 'I'm the one who should be sorry.'
'Sorry? You? Why should you be sorry? You didn't do
anything. I came here, and disrupted your life, then asked you to
leave this world and come to mine. I'm sorry, Hutch. I only
wanted to make you happy again.'
Hutch took his outstretched hands, and drew him down on the grass that
covered the grave. The grave that bore the tombstone with his own
name.
'You've done everything for me, Starsky. Fed me, and comforted
me, and loved me. Maybe even saved my life. I was so crazy,
last night. I planned to kill myself, right here. I planned to
eat my own gun. Probably wouldn't have done it. But who
knows?'
'You wouldn't have done it, Hutch. It's against everything you
believe.'
'How can you be so sure?'
Starsky was silent, for he'd vowed never to speak of it again.
'I know,' said Hutch. 'You've been my lover for many years.
We belong in another world. Together. It's too difficult for me
to comprehend, Starsky.'
'Then don't,' said Starsky. 'I won't mention the subject to you
again, if you just forgive me. We'll do whatever you want.
Go wherever you want. What were you going to do, when I showed
up? Rather than kill yourself, I mean?'
'I don't know. I've been on leave from the police force, since
Starsky was shot. I'm not capable of handling casework, right
now. Perhaps a desk job.'
'I don't know what sort of job I could do here, without references, or
proof of an education. I don't even have a driver's
license. Washing floors?'
'Oh, Starsky. You're worth so much more than that.'
'I don't care. I want to be with you, if you'll let me. In
whatever way you let me. If you only want to be friends, that's
fine. As long as we're together.'
'You know I want more than that, Starsk. But listen. I need
to tell you something. I don't believe he was a demon. He wasn't evil,
Starsky. He cared about me, and it wasn't pretence.'
'Okay. I never met him, so I can't know, either way. I'll
take your word for it.'
'He died saving my life. He stepped in front of me, and took all
those bullets. For me. And he looked up at me, as the blood
ran out of him, onto the garage floor. And he told me he loved
me. That he couldn't let me die.'
'I see,' said Starsky.
'Either he was human, and just what he seemed to be, or he was a demon,
but no longer evil.'
'That could happen, I suppose,' said Starsky. 'How could even a
demon hate you, once he got to know you? Perhaps he was a demon, and
fell in love with you, and that made him mortal. It happens.'
'Does it?' asked Hutch. He pulled Starsky close, and laid his
head on his shoulder, and wept. 'It was so hard,' he said.
'Watching him fade. Hoping that every twitch was a sign he was
coming back to me. And then, he just stopped breathing. His
heart stopped, and nothing could bring him back. I knew he didn't want
machines keeping his body alive, while there was no one left there,
inside.'
'You were right,' said Starsky.
They sat quietly for some time. Then Hutch said, 'I want to go
home. I need to think. When I first got here, I tried to
open that Gate you told me about. But I couldn't. I'd like
to be able to send you home, at least. If you want to go.'
'Not without you,' said Starsky. 'Not unless you grow to hate me
so much, you can't bear that I'm in the same world as you.'
'I could never hate you, Starsky,' said Hutch.
They got to their feet. Starsky turned back toward the
path. There was someone standing there, watching them. It
was the guard from the other night. The one who had called them
perverts, and homos.
'Good evening,' said Starsky. 'Is there a problem?'
'Yes,' said the guard. 'I see you're back. And still hanging all
over each other. I think you're the ones with the problem.'
'Well, we're leaving again. Would you like us to call ahead, next
time we come? You could bring a folding chair and a thermos of coffee.'
'Very funny,' said the guard. He slunk away, among the
gravestones.
'What was that all about?' asked Hutch.
'Nothing,' said Starsky. 'Just a ghoul.'
A police car was cruising by, as they reached the cemetery gate.
'Hutch?' asked Starsky. 'Let me drive?'
'Sure,' said Hutch. 'How did you get here, anyway?'
'I took a taxi,' said Starsky. 'I had some money on me, from this
morning, when I shopped for groceries. Do you recognize that
officer?'
Hutch didn't turn around. He waited until Starsky turned the car,
and glanced out of the corner of his eye. 'He looks familiar,' he
answered. 'Why?'
'He's a demon,' said Starsky.
'Why do you think that?' asked Hutch. He sounded merely curious,
not scoffing.
'I don't think he's a demon,' said Starsky. 'I know it.'
'How do you know it, then?' Hutch was silent for a moment.
The police car slid in behind them, several lengths back. 'Do you
see something I can't see?'
'Yes,' said Starsky. 'You're remembering more all the time.'
'Not really remembering. It just makes sense. If you're
sure, you must see something that tells you he's a demon.'
'Or hear. Or feel. Or smell. There are lots of ways
to recognize demons, or sense their presence. But not everyone
has the talent, or all the talents. I can see signs of demonhood,
and sometimes hear them. It's why I became a Hunter. You're
a Traveller. You can open Gates. You can open
Windows. You can peel back layers of Illusion, and expose
Reality. I'm going to see if we can shake this tail we've picked
up. Close your eyes and let me drive.'
'The police know where I live,' Hutch pointed out, but he obeyed.
'Yes,' said Starsky. 'But I don't think this is a police
matter. This is a demon matter. They just discovered a
Demon Hunter is among them. A notorious one, I might add.
And I've joined forces with you. We are a Joined Force, aren't
we?'
'Yes,' said Hutch. 'But I'm angry. What happened to the
'darling'?'
'I thought you didn't like it.'
'I liked it. I liked it too much.'
Hutch turned on the car radio. The last notes of a song died out,
and a new one began. A strange, primitive rhythm. A wailing
horn of some kind. A powerful male voice. A love song,
about a demanding love.
"I wanna tell you how it's gonna be, you're gonna give your love to me,
I wanna love you night and day, you know my love not fade away.
You know my love not fade away, not fade away!
My love is bigger than a Cadillac, I try to show you but you drive me
back,
Your love for me has got to be real, you're gonna know just how I feel.
Our love is real, not fade away, not fade away!"
'Our love is real, not fade away.' Hutch sang along with the radio. He
had a beautiful voice, and Starsky had missed it, almost as much as his
body in bed.
'Is that what you think?' asked Starsky. 'That our love is real
to you now?'
'I think you should lose the demon cop, and then drive us home,' said
Hutch.
Starsky shook the demon after a few miles of twists and turns.
Then, he headed out to the canyons.
'Where are we going?' asked Hutch.
'Shh, darling. Just close your eyes and let me drive,
remember? Have you even been out of the city, since he was shot?'
A half moon was lazily sailing the night sky, among the prolific
stars. Hutch sighed, and leaned his head back. He rested
his hand on Starsky's thigh. It was worth all the pain of the
last few hours, to see him relax like that, and trust his Starsky.
The radio was playing something soft and romantic. Hutch rubbed
his palm against Starsky's thigh, then a little higher up.
Starsky turned, to catch a look of lust from Hutch's heavy-lidded
eyes. They were in a lonely, deserted canyon, and it was
very late. Starsky pulled over.
'Is there a blanket in the trunk?' he asked.
'Yes,' said Hutch, with feigned innocence. 'Why?'
'It has been too long since you've been out of the city, if you have to
ask me that,' said Starsky.
There was a blanket, and a heavy rug in the trunk. They found a
sheltered spot under a tree, and spread out the rug. Starsky
wrapped them in the blanket.
'I want you inside me, Starsky,' said Hutch. 'Will you come
inside me?'
'Oh, my baby. You destroy me, when you ask for things like
that. You don't ever have to ask.'
Hutch was warm inside. So warm. It had been too long.
Far too long. Starsky bit down on the leather sleeve of Hutch's
jacket, to keep from screaming. It was more difficult to keep
from coming too soon. But he wanted to make this worthwhile. If
it was worth doing, it was worth doing properly, and for a very long
time.
******************
'Don't go yet,' whispered Hutch.
'I won't,' Starsky managed to answer. He felt at peace.
Quiet inside. The little nibbling voices, like mice scrabbling in
the walls of his mind, urging him to go to Hutch, to join him in death,
were gone. He had joined Hutch, in life. Wherever that life
would be, whatever it would lead to, however they would live, they were
a Joined Force.
Hutch was smiling. Though his eyes were closed, he knew. He
could feel it.
'When you lay there so still, I wanted to take you inside me, warm you
like this, and bring you back to life. When he lay there, I
mean. I'm sorry.'
'It doesn't matter,' said Starsky. 'He died for you. I'd die for
you. We're the same, under the skin, whatever he was, or I am.'
The cool wind that had been blowing down the canyon for some time, was
turning cold. The rug no longer kept out the autumn chill from
the ground.
'We should go home,' said Hutch. 'Get something to eat.
Sleep. Then we'll talk. Make plans. Does that sound good to
you?'
'It sounds great,' Starsky answered. But they didn't move for a
while. It was too good to lie like this, listening to each other
breathe, far away from the troubles of both their worlds. At last
Starsky rose up, on his elbows, and looked down at their joined
bodies. 'Did I hurt you?' he whispered. 'I didn't hurt you,
did I?'
'Only a little,' Hutch answered. 'It was a pain like being
born. A pain like coming back to life. The last few months,
I felt as if I were in a coma, too. And then I died.'
Starsky slipped out of Hutch's body, and Hutch sighed. 'I never
thought I could like it. Having another man's cock inside
me. But it's you, you know? Let's go home, and make plans
to live.'
Starsky drove slowly, wanting to cling to the peace, and the quiet
inside. His own personal peace could never be held onto, he
knew. It could be seen out of the corner of his eye, if Hutch
smiled at him. It could be felt, like a warm spring breeze, if
Hutch touched his hand. That was all. It could never be captured,
and held prisoner, or the peace would die.
There was a police car parked down the street from Hutch's apartment.
Why were they so obvious about it? Were they trying to fool
Starsky into complacency with the blatant nature of their surveillance
techniques? Or did they simply not care? Starsky drove a couple
of blocks past Hutch's place, and pulled over. He felt for his
demon killing knives, and pulled the extra one out of his boot.
'Take this,' he said to Hutch, and handed him the hilt. 'Be
careful. It's very sharp. It can cut through demon
hide. You could cut the heart out of a demon with that.'
Hutch examined the knife, curiously. 'I've never seen a design
like this,' he said. 'The scrolling on the hilt, I mean.'
'Yes, you have,' Starsky told him. 'It was your
knife. It came from your own world. Look at the
scrolls. What do they tell you?'
Hutch studied the designs on the hilt. He shook his head.
'Don't think in terms of letters, of an alphabet,' said Starsky.
'Let the scrolls lead you into the maze, and tell me what you find at
the heart.'
Hutch gazed obediently at the scrolls, and Starsky could feel his
attention narrowing. He kept his eye on the street, watching for
any signs that a demon might notice their presence. Hutch looked
up, suddenly. 'Something is wrong,' he said. 'Something is
different.'
'Different, how?' asked Starsky.
'I don't know. Something is different about the street, since we
left here earlier. Something is wrong.'
'There is the police car,' said Starsky. 'That's different.'
'Yes,' said Hutch. 'But there's more.'
'Should I drive up to your building, or do you want to get out here and
walk?'
Hutch looked down at his knife hilt. 'Let's get out of the
car. Walk down the alley, and go in by the back door.'
Hutch opened the car door, silently. Starsky slid across the
seat, and out Hutch's door. Hutch closed the car door, as
silently as he'd opened it. They moved slowly into the alley,
then ran quickly through the darkness. Darting into doorways, as
they worked their way around. Hutch opened the back door to his
apartment building. They tiptoed up the stairs. Hutch was
leading the way, as he knew these stairs well, even in the dark.
He pulled a small flashlight out of his jacket pocket, and shone it on
the lock. Starsky unlocked the door, and they slipped
inside. The apartment was dark, for the most part, but a faint
light came from the streetlights. Shadows filled the corners.
Shadows upon shadows, thought Starsky. The apartment was
dark, but not empty.
'Who is here?' asked Hutch. 'Is it you, Huggy? Speak!'
A shadowy man got up from a shadowy chair. 'No,' said the
man. 'I'm not Huggy.'
'Captain Dobey?' asked Hutch. 'What are you doing here, hiding in
the dark?'
'I'm here to warn you,' said Captain Dobey. 'Charges have been
laid against you, Hutch. Charges of committing sodomy with
another man. They're coming to arrest you. You should run,
now.'
Hutch was silent for a long moment. 'Sodomy?' he asked at
last. 'What sort of evidence do they have?'
'What difference does that make?' asked Dobey, falling back down into
his chair, with an audible thump. 'They can't have any evidence,
of course. The charge is nonsense. But they'll invent the
evidence, Hutch. Clearly you're on someone's Black List.'
'Whoa,' said Starsky. 'Sodomy? Invent the evidence?
What are you talking about, Dobey?'
'Who's that?' asked Dobey. 'You're not who you sound like.
Who are you?'
'We're being watched,' said Hutch. 'Or I'd turn on the light, and
you could see for yourself. Who does he sound like, Dobey?'
'He sounds like Starsky. But Starsky is dead.'
'I wish people would quit saying that. It gives me the creeps,'
said Starsky. 'I'm very much alive. But I'm pissed
off. One of you explain what sodomy is. Why is Hutch being
charged with it?'
'Sodomy is anal intercourse, by a man with either a woman or another
man,' Hutch informed him. 'Both are illegal, but usually
it's only the case of a man with a man that is actually prosecuted.'
'Why?' asked Starsky, in complete bewilderment.
'That's a good question,' said Hutch. 'A question which would
take many hours of investigation for us to even begin to answer.
So let's not start.'
'Fair enough. Now, tell me what you mean about invented evidence.'
'Oh, cops do it all the time,' said Hutch. 'If they don't have
real evidence, they plant it. Anything to get a conviction.'
'In our world, Hutch, that's a serious crime. So serious, that a
police officer could face the death penalty if convicted.'
'That's not the case here,' Hutch told him.
'Now that you've answered this man's questions, perhaps you could
answer mine?' asked Dobey. 'Who is he?'
'I'm Starsky,' said Starsky. 'The real Starsky. The other
was an impostor. Hutch and me have enemies, and they kidnapped
me, and replaced me with a look-alike. I escaped, and here I
am. Satisfied?'
'No. I'm not satisfied,' said Dobey. 'That's the most
ridiculous story I've ever heard.'
'Okay,' said Starsky. 'I'm from another dimension. Hutch is
from my world. He was kidnapped and brought here by demons, to
get revenge on us. I came here to take Hutch home. How's
that?'
Starsky could almost see the steam coming from Dobey's ears. He
tried to speak several times, but finally only managed one word.
'Demons?' he said.
'Demons,' said Starsky. 'You have demons on your own police
force, and they're the ones who are after Hutch.'
'Demons,' said Dobey again. 'You know, that almost makes a kind
of sense. Probably because I'm sitting here in the dark with
you. It makes more sense than that you would commit sodomy with
another man, Hutch. That I can't believe.'
'Believe it, Dobey,' said Hutch. 'It's true enough. But I'm
taking your advice. I wasn't coming back to Metro anyway.
Starsky and I are leaving town.'
'Starsky?' asked Dobey.
'Yeah. This is Starsky. The man I committed sodomy with.'
'I don't understand you, Hutch,' said Dobey.
'Neither do I,' muttered Starsky. 'Sodomy. Committed
sodomy. I thought we made love.'
'You don't have to understand me, Captain,' Hutch continued. 'I'm
leaving, as I said. You can forget all about me, and go on with
your life. I'll be happy.'
'I don't want to forget you, son. I care about you. I don't
understand what happened. No. I do understand. This man looks
like Starsky, and he convinced you he is Starsky. That's
it. You were tricked somehow. I'll testify to that, and
he'll be convicted, not you.'
Dobey got up from his chair, and started for the door.
'Captain?' asked Hutch. 'What are you doing?'
'Saving you from yourself,' said Dobey. 'Everything will be
okay. You'll see.'
'No!' said Hutch. 'You don't understand. You're wrong about
Starsky.'
'I'm not wrong, you are,' Dobey answered. 'This isn't Starsky --
Wilson? Humphries? All of you, come on up,' he shouted down the
stairs. Many heavy footsteps tramped up to the door. 'Take them
into custody,' said Dobey.
He turned on the lights, blinding Starsky and Hutch. Cops poured
into the room, weapons drawn. They were outnumbered, with no
chance to escape. It seemed the only option at the moment was to
surrender.
The demon cop entered the room. He smiled at Starsky. 'You
thought you could escape me,' he said. 'But my traps are many.'
Starsky didn't answer.
'Search them for weapons,' said the demon cop.
His henchmen patted Starsky and Hutch down quite thoroughly.
'Nothing,' they reported.
'Where are they? Where are your knives?' asked the demon.
'You know I can't tell you that,' said Starsky.
'I'll take you apart until I find them,' said the demon.
'Hey! None of that,' said Dobey. 'They'll be searched and
processed at Metro. No police brutality. At least not
against Hutch. He's innocent.'
'Sure he is,' said the demon. And he smirked. 'Take them out to
the car, boys,' he ordered. 'Let's go down to Metro, and process
them.'
Hutch seemed to be in a state of shock. He said not a word, as
the cops led him out his apartment door.
'This is just a formality, Hutch,' said Dobey. 'Once I've
explained the circumstances to the D.A., I'm sure you won't be charged.'
'Formality my ass,' said Starsky, as he was dragged out behind his
lover. 'How could you do this to him, Dobey? After what
he's been through the last few months. Who are you?'
'I'm his friend, which is more than what you are,' said Dobey. He
stared at Starsky. 'Now I see you, I can tell why you fooled
him. This is for his own good. I'm saving him from a life
of sexual sin, and degradation. What were you trying to do?
Destroy him?'
'Give him his own life back. But why put him through this?
Take me down to Metro, if you like. Let him alone.'
Hutch turned at that, suddenly alive again. 'Oh, no,' he
said. 'We're in this together. Whatever happens to you,
happens to me. I won't stand by while they charge you, and
let me go. We'll both go down, or neither of us.'
'Hutch,' said Dobey. 'You don't know what you're saying.
He's poisoned your mind, somehow. That's obvious.'
'What's obvious, Dobey, is that you're not the man I thought you
were. I thought you were my friend. But you're a traitor,
and I don't want to know you.'
'Hutch!' Dobey protested.
'Take me to Metro,' Hutch told the cops. 'I'd rather be locked in
a cell than stand here listening to him justify himself.'
The cops hauled them down the stairs and out to one of the squad
cars. They shoved them in the back seat. At least they
hadn't separated them, thought Starsky. Yet.
'I'm sorry,' he whispered to Hutch.
Hutch turned to him, a look of astonishment on his face. 'Why?'
he asked. 'What have you done?'
'This is my fault,' said Starsky. 'If it hadn't been for me....'
'It's not your fault, it's theirs. And I set myself up for it, in
a way. When I went on leave, to stay by his bedside, night and
day. The tombstone, as well.'
'Oh, yes,' said Starsky. 'David Starsky. Faithful Partner
of Kenneth Hutchinson.'
'That's what you are, Starsky. And that's what you'll stay, if
they kill me for it.'
'I hope it won't come to that,' said Starsky.
'It could. Obviously you don't know how much hatred there is
against men like us in this world.'
'Men who love each other?' asked Starsky. 'They hate us?
Why?'
'Because they're weak inside. Love terrifies them. Love
they can't put a label on, and control.'
'When I first came here, I thought there was very little demon
activity. I was wrong. It's just more subtle, and harder to
fight. But we have an advantage. You notice they didn't
find our knives?'
'Yes. Why not? Mine is....'
'No. Don't say the words. Demon-killing knives can't be
seen or felt by anyone but a Demon Hunter. Reach for yours.
You can do it, even though your hands are tied.'
'Starsky? I can't.... Wait! It's in my hand. How did
that happen?'
'You're a Demon Hunter. I keep telling you. Now, put it
back. It will come in useful, eventually. Is it safe?'
'Yes. That was weird.'
'I know. It was to me, the first time. Shh. Here come
the cops.'
One of the demon cop's henchmen opened the squad car door, and climbed
in the front, on the passenger side. 'Having fun, boys?' he
asked, leaning over the seat back. They ignored him. He
leaned over further and hit Hutch in the face. 'I asked you a
question, fag,' he said.
'I want my lawyer present, before I answer any questions,' Hutch
answered.
'Lawyer? You? Shit like you doesn't get a lawyer. You
should all be shot on sight. Making decent cops look bad.
Like we all suck cock on our off time.' He hit Hutch again, and
then again.
'Hey! You leave him alone,' Starsky shouted. 'Dobey said no
police brutality.'
'Who cares what Dobey says. He's a little too weak minded, if you
know what I mean. Too soft. If he had his way, we'd all be
pansies and fruits. Guys fucking each other in the showers.
That's what you want, don't you, Hutch?'
Starsky flung himself over Hutch, so the blows were falling on him,
instead. He heard a shout from the apartment doorway.
Dobey, calling out something. 'Stop! Drive them to
Metro. Now!'
Another cop got in behind the wheel of the car. He was
laughing. 'Dobey wants us to take these fairies to Metro,' he
said.
'Sure thing,' said his partner. 'You drive us to Metro.
We'll process this shit, then go home. The world will be a lot
cleaner, thanks to us.'
'What are you talking about?' asked Starsky.
The first cop leaned over the seat again. 'I'm feeling kind
tonight, so I'll tell you,' he said. 'We're not going to Metro.
We're going to the cemetery. Have a little choir practice.'
'Choir practice?' asked Hutch.
'Yeah. Like when you were in uniform, remember?' asked the cop.
'No,' said Hutch. 'I never took part in any of that stuff.
I heard about it, though.'
'Now that's why you aren't a real man, cocksucker,' said the cop.
'You should have gone to choir practice. It teaches you what's
right and what's wrong. We're right, Wilson and me. You
guys are wrong. Got that? It's too late for you,
though. Far too late. But at least we can put you to some
use, teaching the young cops. You're going to be used as an
example. It's all you're good for.'
*****************
It was the hour before dawn. The hour when the human spirit is at
its lowest, but the demonic powers rule supreme. The smirk on the
face of the demon cop had grown wider, thought Starsky, as they made
their way into the cemetery grounds. The guard who spied on them
earlier had greeted them at the gate, and let them in. Now that
he was surrounded by his friends, and Starsky and Hutch were in
handcuffs, he no longer slunk about, Starsky noticed.
The moon had set, and only one star was visible. Starsky wondered
if he should wish upon it. 'Starlight, star bright, last star I
see tonight,' he murmured.
Hutch turned to him, and gave him a secret smile. 'Make a wish,'
he murmured back.
'Here we are,' said the demon cop. 'The grave of a demon, who
turned traitor against his kind. He died, protecting a human. Now, you
die, and you get to share one hole in the ground. Will that be
good for you?'
'Anything's better than having to go on looking at your face,' said
Starsky. He looked down at the headstone that bore his name.
'Are you sure about that?' asked the demon. 'We'll put your
theory to the test. Who wants to go first?' He pulled his
baton out of its belt loop, and waved it under Hutch's nose. 'Oh,
don't worry,' he continued. 'I'm not going to hit you with
it. You fairies like having long, thick objects shoved up your
ass, don't you? I'm going to give you a treat. Your last
fuck. Hold him down, boys.'
'No! No! Please,' Hutch begged. 'I'm not a
fairy. I was drugged, and raped by him. It's all his fault,
I swear.'
'Is that a fact?' asked the demon, with his largest smirk yet.
'Yes! I can prove it,' said Hutch. 'I never took part in choir
practice, but I'm willing to try now.'
The demon cop laughed. 'You're a little late for that, but why
not? Better late than never. If you do good, maybe we'll
let you live a while longer. You're my bitch now. Got that?'
'Sure, sure. Anything you say. Just let me prove it.'
The demon seemed to consider Hutch's request for a moment, then
nodded. 'Okay, boys. Take off his handcuffs. But
watch him.' He looked at Hutch, carefully. 'Don't try to
escape, if that's what you're after,' he said. 'I'll shoot you in
the back. Got that?'
'Sure, sure. Anything you say,' said Hutch, again. One of
the cops unlocked his cuffs. Hutch turned to Starsky.
'Fag!' he screamed. 'You filthy fag.' He knocked Starsky to
the ground, and started to kick him. Kick him hard. The
other cops laughed and cheered. First one, and then another,
began to join in. Starsky rolled over on his stomach as much as
he could, trying to protect his vital organs. The rage of the
cops was growing, and Starsky could feel the blood lust in the
air. He didn't know how much more he could take.
Then, he heard Hutch's voice again. A perfect roar, this
time. 'Tell them to stop! Tell them to back off, or I'll
kill you!'
The cops stopped kicking Starsky. They moved away a little to
check out what was happening. Starsky risked a glance up, from
his position on the ground. Hutch had the demon cop down, his
demon-killing knife at his throat.
'I'm not kidding, pig,' said Hutch. 'Tell your goons to stop, or
the last thing you'll ever see in this world, will be your own heart,
beating on the ground in front of you.'
'They'll kill you, right after,' said the demon.
'Maybe,' said Hutch. 'But you'll still be dead, so what good will
that do you?'
'Fair enough,' said the demon. 'Wilson. Back off. The
rest of you, too. Just for now. Until I get this lunatic
off my chest.'
'Tell them to move right away,' said Hutch. 'Over to that line of
trees.'
'Oh, no,' said the demon. 'That's too far. Ugh! Stop
that!'
'I said, tell them to move over to those trees. I don't like them
so close. It makes me nervous. The more nervous I get, the
more blood you lose.'
'We can rush him,' said Wilson.
'No,' said the demon. 'Not yet. Do as he says.'
'Okay,' said Wilson. He didn't sound happy. Starsky didn't
care.
'Can you get on your feet, Starsky?' Hutch asked.
Starsky struggled to his feet, and stumbled over to Hutch's side.
He sat down, and wriggled until he had his bound hands in front of
him. Then, he reached for one of his knives.
'That's a neat trick,' said Hutch. 'Did you study with Houdini?'
'Who?' said Starsky.
'Never mind,' said Hutch. He looked at Starsky. His eyes
asked the question for him. What do we do next?
'Hutch,' Starsky whispered. 'You're a Traveller. Open
the Gate.'
Hutch stared into Starsky's eyes. 'Starsk,' he whispered.
'I can't open these Gates you keep telling me about. You're wrong
about me. I'm not your Hutch, the one you loved. I'm
someone different. Sorry if I disappoint you.'
'You don't disappoint me, and I'm not wrong. Hutch, listen.
I've been thinking. Why did the Gate open, the moment I hit the
wall? Gates don't open like that. You opened it. You
called me through. You were visiting his grave, thinking about
killing yourself because he died. You were calling to
me. Begging me to come to you, and rescue you, even if you
didn't know it.'
'Yes,' said Hutch. 'I was. Because I love you.'
The demon cop made a retching sound, but grew silent when Hutch dug his
knife into his throat. 'Stay out of this,' Hutch snarled.
'We're having a private conversation, here.'
'Let me up,' said the demon. 'I'll retire and let you chat in
peace.'
'Sure you will,' said Starsky. He watched the demon as he
continued to persuade Hutch. 'You know how to open the Gates,
Hutch. Your body, and your heart, and your soul know. The
way they knew how to make love to me.'
'Starsky?' Hutch whispered. 'Not here. We have an audience.'
'Yes, here,' said Starsky. 'It doesn't really bother the
audience, does it?' he asked the demon. 'Your goons were
sincerely disgusted, but you were just acting. Demons don't give
a fuck who anyone fucks. You'd fuck anything, on two legs or
four. Alive or dead.'
'Well, yeah,' said the demon proudly. 'Don't let it get around,
or horny zombies will be lining up for blocks.'
'We won't,' said Starsky. 'If you tell us what it is you're
after.'
'What I'm after?' mused the demon. 'I'm after a lot of things.'
'Of course,' said Starsky. 'So are we.' He looked around,
at the cemetery, the huddle of cops over by the trees. The
gravestone with his name carved into it. The gravestone that
marked a Gate into another world. 'You set this up, didn't
you? You never meant to kill us. Well, at least before
Hutch opened the Gate. You wanted Hutch to open the Gate, but you
knew he'd never do it for you. He doesn't remember how. But
I can remind him. Hutch could open it for me.'
'Sanctity,' cursed the demon. 'Foiled again.'
'I tell you what,' said Starsky. 'We have a bit of a stalemate,
don't we? Why don't we end it? We'll let you up. You
keep your pals at bay.'
'Why should I?' asked the demon.
'Why should we?' asked Hutch.
'Because you have to let me go, to return to your own world?' suggested
the demon.
'You're right,' said Starsky. 'We do. But we're not going
to do it, without some sort of prior agreement, specifying honourable
behaviour. And there are one or two questions I want to ask
you. Why don't we make a little truce for now. If you kill
us, we can't open the Gate, can we?'
'And if you kill me, my goons will kill you, before you return to your
world.'
'A stalemate,' said Starsky. 'How about a truce?'
'Sure,' said the demon. 'A truce.'
'You don't trust him, do you Starsky?' asked Hutch.
'Of course I don't trust him,' said Starsky. 'He's a demon.
But he still needs us to open the Gate. Then all bets are off.
Right?'
'Right,' agreed the demon. 'Now, why don't you let me up, and
we'll talk business.'
'Yeah, let him up, Hutch. But keep an eye on him.'
Hutch removed his knife from the demon cop's throat. He backed
off, slowly. The demon got up, with equal slowness. 'It's okay,
boys,' he called out. 'We have a truce, for now.'
'Truce?' asked Wilson.
'Yeah. They won't kill me, and we won't kill them. For
now.' He turned to Starsky. 'You said you had some
questions?'
'I do,' said Starsky. 'What is this world? Why are we
here? Why do you want to escape?'
The demon cop snorted in amusement. 'Humans!' he said. 'Always
wanting to know the Meaning of Life.'
'Why doncha take these cuffs off, before you explain it all to us?'
asked Starsky.
The demon cop studied Starsky for a moment, a sardonic grin on his
face. 'Boys!' he called out, at last. 'Why doncha come a
little closer? Just to that first line of gravestones.'
'What are we, sheep?' asked one of the younger cops, as they obliged.
'That's a good analogy, yes,' said the demon.
'Well, I'm no sheep,' said the younger cop. He kept on walking
toward the demon, when the older and wiser cops stayed where they were
put. 'I thought we were going to have choir practice,' he
said. 'Kill the fags. What next? You want us to such
their dicks?'
'No,' said the demon. 'But if you don't shut up now, I'll make
you suck mine later.'
'The fuck you will. This isn't like any decent choir practice
I've ever been too. I think you're a fairy yourself.'
'Maybe I am,' said the demon. 'You want choir practice, you got it.
Like magic.' There was a dull popping sound. A large hole
appeared in the centre of the younger cop's forehead, and he fell dead
upon the grass.
'Hey! You just shot Jamison,' Wilson cried.
'He wanted choir practice. Now he's practising with the Heavenly
Choir. Anyone wanna join him?'
'Nah. We're doin' okay,' said Wilson. The others mumbled
their agreement with the sentiment.
'I hate silencers,' said the demon, looking down at the Magnum in his
hand. 'But this thing makes a noise to wake the dead, and
considering where we are....'
'You got a point, ' said Hutch. 'But you were going to explain a
few things to us. Like why you want me to open the Gate?'
'Do I? Well, I guess I do. You see, this world is a
prison. A prison for demons. I just want to clear
out. Can you understand that?'
'Sure,' said Hutch. 'But I'm a cop. Why should I help a prisoner
escape?'
The demon cop shrugged. 'Because we're all sorta in the same
boat. You. Me. Your boyfriend. We got sent here
by the same people. The same demons.'
'What demons were those?' asked Starsky.
'The Demon Council. This is their prison world. They send
you here if you piss them off. Hutch pissed them off by
Travelling the Worlds, and killing demons everywhere he went.
Then he hooked up with you, and you make a good team, if I might
be permitted to say so.'
'You might,' said Starsky. 'But how did you piss them off?
If you don't mind my asking?'
'Not at all, though it embarrasses me to admit it. I was too
nice. There. I've said it. I feel better already.'
'We're happy for you,' said Hutch. 'But are we expected to
believe it?'
'Believe it. Do you think I'd admit such a shameful thing if it
weren't the truth?'
'I suppose not,' said Hutch. 'But tell me something? Was
Starsky... the Starsky of this world... was he really a demon?'
'Yeah. He was a demon. Sent here as punishment for
something or other. Maybe being too nice, like me? Who
knows? We're doomed to appear only in mortal form. We have to
live among mortals, as mortals. After a few years, we're usually
cured of good behaviour, and back to our old demon selves. But
your Starsky, he fell for you. Fell hard. And he was so
weird about it. He wouldn't fuck you. Wouldn't let the rest
of us touch you. He said something incomprehensible. That he
couldn't touch you, because he was evil. That he was atoning for
his sins. We all laughed. We figured he'd get over
it. Then he took those bullets for you, and died. I guess
he died happy.'
'I guess,' said Hutch, looking down at the grass.
'I'm sorry, Hutch,' Starsky told him. 'I'm sorry for the things I
said about him.'
'No. You were right. He was a demon. But I loved
him. I would have done anything for him.'
'You ruined a perfectly bad demon,' said the cop. 'But I forgive
you. My good side acts up, every once in a while.'
'Oh, yeah?' asked Starsky. 'And what side of you wants to leave
here? Where do you want to go? What are you going to do
there?'
'There's no end to your questions, is there? I think I've
suffered here long enough. I'm afraid of becoming completely evil
again, and I don't want that. I'm thinking of moving on, finding
a nice, quiet world, where I can live out my life in peace. As a
demon, of course. That's what I am. Why should I be ashamed
of it?'
'So, you have good intentions? You're not interested in starting a war,
or anything?'
'A war?' asked the demon. 'Why would I want that? Wars are
messy. People die. Yuck!'
'I agree,' said Starsky. 'Well, as long as you're sure you have
no evil plans, we'll team up, open the Gate, and move on. Agreed?'
'Agreed,' said the demon.
They both turned and looked at Hutch. 'Why are you looking
at me?' he asked.
'We're looking at you, because it's all up to you now, Babe,' said
Starsky. 'Are you gonna open the Gate for us?' Starsky's
eyes told Hutch he had complete faith that he could do it. That
he could do anything, if he set his mind to it.
'I'll open the Gate,' said Hutch, with a confidence he didn't feel. He
looked at the demon cop. 'First, take those handcuffs off Starsky,' he
told him.
The cop shrugged. 'I'll take them off, but he better behave, or
I'll shoot him. In fact, I could handcuff him to a tree, and rape
him, until you agree to open the Gate for me.'
'You think I would? I'm not stupid. I'd open the Gate, and
you'd shoot us both, and then make your escape.'
'You're right. I would. But this way, we all get what we
want.' He unlocked Starsky's cuffs. 'Now, open the Gate,'
he said.
'Sure,' said Hutch, acting confident again. 'Where is it?'
The demon cop snarled. 'You're the fucking Traveller. You
tell me.'
'Don't talk to him like that,' Starsky snarled back. 'When your
Demon Council sent him here, they took away his memories. Give me
time, and I'll remind him.'
'We don't have much time,' said the demon. 'It's almost
daylight. This place will be opening for business soon.
Funeral processions, and weeping relatives bringing flowers for their
loved ones. All that crap.'
'Yeah, and you have a dead cop leaking blood into the ground a few
yards away. That would attract attention. Why don't you see to that,
and let us do our jobs?'
The cop shrugged again. 'Might as well,' he said. 'But
don't try to escape. I'll have Wilson watch you. Don't give
him any trouble.'
'The only place we want to escape to, is back to our own world,'
Starsky pointed out.
The cop stalked off, to drag the body of his victim into the bushes
along the trail. Starsky shook his head.
'What?' asked Hutch.
'I was just wondering. Is he going to bury Jamison, or eat
him? Hutch! We have to get out of here, and back to our own
world.'
'If you say so, Starsky. I don't know where this place is, how to
find it, or whether I'll like it when we get there.'
'Well, for one thing darling, in our world, what we did earlier tonight
is called making love. Not committing sodomy. And no one
will come to arrest us for it. They are all too busy with their
own lives, to care what other people do with theirs, in their own
homes. People here seem to have too Damn much time on their
hands. Now, see this grave here?'
'Yeah. Starsky's grave.'
'That's where the Gate is. You chose this plot, didn't you?
They showed you others, but you were drawn to this one.'
'How'd you know?'
'You told me that's how you found your first Gate, and opened it.
Not in a graveyard, but in a park. You were drawn to one spot,
and eventually, you realized why. You told me that you stared at
the spot long enough, and it began to shift. The edges began to
move. You said the term Gate isn't really accurate. It's
more like a channel. A place where the borders between the Worlds
meet, and blend.'
'None of this makes any sense,' said Hutch.
'No,' said Starsky. 'It doesn't make logical sense, according to
the laws of this world. This world that you've been shaped to
fit. You've been forced to see only one reality. Look into
another reality. Look at the gravestone. It bears my name, but
here I am, talking to you. One reality, blending into another.'
Starsky continued to talk, letting the words flow in their own time,
hardly paying attention to what he was saying after the first few
moments. He kept an eye on Wilson, and the other cops. They
were staying well back, but Starsky could feel their hostility.
The demon cop returned from his sojourn into the bushes, licking his
lips and adjusting his clothes. Far off in the distance, Starsky
heard sirens. Police cars. They seemed to be coming this
way. The sun shot its first rays over the horizon.
Hutch was muttering something. It sounded like a foreign
language. Starsky smiled. This was one of his favourite
moments, he thought. It was almost as wonderful as that moment
just before orgasm -- the moment before all Hell broke loose.
The other cops were becoming restless, Starsky noticed. Perhaps
they felt the bursting of the channels between the Worlds as
well? Their demon leader was smiling in a way that made Starsky
glad he'd decided to kill him. Police sirens were coming closer.
Hutch continued to murmur to himself. Starsky rested one hand on
Hutch's lower back. The other still held one of his knives.
The demon cop was going to try to shoot them, that he knew. You
might get me, thought Starsky. But not him.
'What are we waiting for?' asked one of the younger cops.
'That's my business,' said the demon. 'You'll find out, soon
enough.'
Yeah, thought Starsky. We all will. I wonder why he brought
you along? Not just to put pressure on Hutch. Payment,
maybe? Proof to the Demon Council that you're bad, and you've
brought some humans over with you? The police cars burst out of
the trees, and drove straight for them. They screeched to a halt
a few feet away, and several cops jumped out. Captain Dobey was
one of them.
'It took me some time to track you here,' he said. 'What the Hell
do you think you're doing?'
'Hell, Captain Dobey. We're doin' Hell,' said the demon, with a
grin. 'Want to join us?'
'Join you? What are you talking about? You were supposed to
take Detective Hutchinson and this impostor to Metro. Why are you
here in the cemetery?'
'Like the demon said, Dobey. Hell,' Starsky told him. 'Stick
around. You'll see.'
Hutch didn't seem to notice the new arrivals, or indeed, anything
beyond the Gate he was opening. A howling wind rose. It
whirled about their ankles, stirring the dead leaves at their
feet. The strange music that had accompanied Starsky's journey to
this world, was playing once more, louder and raised to a fever pitch.
'What's going on?' Dobey cried.
The Gate opened, full force. Hutch was out of practice, thought
Starsky. There was no need to fling the channels wide open.
He'd have to have a talk with Hutch, once they were back home where
they belonged. No time now. Demons from his own world
were pouring through the Gateway. Hutch was staring in
astonishment.
'I opened it,' he said.
'Yeah. You did. Now, get a move on, Dummy,' Starsky
yelled. He pushed Hutch forward. It was like trying to move
a tree.
The demon cop jumped in front, and pulled out his Magnum. But he hadn't
been a demon for some time. He was unprepared for the attack of a
Demon Hunter, in a rage. Starsky's knife, designed to cut out the
heart of a demon, slid into the cop's human flesh like a hot poker
through butter. The demon coughed once and died. His Magnum
fell to the ground, and Starsky picked it up. He turned on the
others. Most were watching the invading demons, or the open
Gate. Captain Dobey was watching Starsky, and Hutch.
'Back off!' Starsky told him. 'Or I'll shoot you.
Hutch! Stay with me, here. Come on!'
Hutch started toward Starsky, and the Gate to their own world. He
didn't move fast enough, however. Dobey pulled a tranquillizer
dart gun from his pocket. 'Don't go any further, Hutch,' he
called. 'Don't follow this demon. I won't allow you to
destroy yourself like this.'
'You're insane, Dobey,' Starsky screamed. 'You think he's better
off here, with cops like Wilson here. Wilson wanted to kill us
both.'
'I won't let that happen. I'll protect him.'
'Sure you will. Hutch! Come on. Come with me.
The Gate will close, soon.'
Hutch flung himself toward Starsky and the closing Gate. But he
was too late. Dobey's dart hit him full in the back. With
his last strength, Hutch pushed Starsky through the Gate, back into his
own world. The Gate slammed closed, and Starsky was back in the
warehouse, on the other side of the wall.
'No!' he screamed. 'Hutch!' He threw himself at the wall, in
horror and terror, again and again. 'Open the Gate, Hutch.
Open the Gate!'
The wall remained blank, as if the Gate had never existed. He
battered himself against it, until he fell senseless to the dirty
warehouse floor.
************************
'The Gate is locked, Detective,' the Traveller informed him.
'What do you mean, locked?' Starsky demanded.
'I mean, the Gate is locked. Like any ordinary locked gate or
door. It cannot be opened, unless you have the right key.'
'Or a pass key?' asked Starsky.
'If there is such a thing in this particular case. There may not
be,' the Traveller told him.
'There must be,' said Starsky. 'My partner is back there, locked
in. God only knows what's happening to him. I must get to
him.'
'Starsky, I know how you feel,' said Captain Dobey.
'No, you don't,' Starsky told him. 'You can't possible imagine
what it felt like, to watch you turn traitor. Not once, but
twice.'
'That wasn't me,' said Dobey.
'Prove it,' Starsky challenged. 'Help me get back to rescue
Hutch.'
'I'll help,' said Dobey. 'Samhain is coming soon. Perhaps
the Gate will open on its own.'
'Perhaps,' said Starsky. 'In the meantime, I'm living here.
Night and day. If Hutch opens the Gate again, I'll be waiting.'
********************
The cell door slammed shut.
'This is for your own good, Hutch,' Captain Dobey told him.
'It won't be for long. I'm sure that when I explain the
circumstances in court, they'll acquit you. Or give you a light
sentence.'
Hutch didn't answer. He stared at the wall. He must stay
calm, he thought, until he had the chance to fulfil his thwarted desire
to end his own life. That chance would come soon. He could
join Starsky in death. The Starsky of this world. The other
Starsky -- his sweet lover of only a few days -- he must be
protected. He must not call him back to this world, ever
again. It was too dangerous. Eventually Starsky's pain
would ease. He'd find another lover. Hutch must hold onto
that belief. It was all he had left.
***The End***
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